Wednesday, June 25, 2014

So crazy in love...

I have so many men in my life that I love so much...but I think I found the one that trumps them all! :)

I keep saying knock on wood that things don't shift as he "wakes up" more. But so far Waylon has been my easiest baby BY FAR! This also may be exaggerated b/c he is my third so I am MUCH less nervous.

He seriously LOVES to sleep. He wakes (on his own) every 2 to 3 hours to eat and he eats like a mad man then sometimes he hang out awake for a short while (rare) but most of the time he just goes back to sleep until he needs to eat again! It is crazy! Now I know this will change and I'm ok with that but for now I am enjoying the gentle transition into having 3 kids. I do pray he stays easy and continues to just go with the flow.

Waylon is so cuddly too. He somehow find the perfect position when cuddling it is awesome.

He is also the king of hiccups which disturbs his sleep sometimes but we figure it out.

He loves his momma haha I think all my kids have at this stage though b.c I kinda am the main caregiver and food source.

I'm seriously just so crazy in love with him and his sweet self. I just love to kiss his sweet face and snuggle him.

Night is the same as day in that he wakes every 3 or so hours to eat but he eats and is back to sleep!

Praying hard he stays not fussy.

So I also have to say how crazy in love with my husband I am right now. He is stepping it up like never before it is SO amazing! I seriously don't have to even ask for help most of the time, he just volunteers and takes things on I never expect him to. I am SO blessed!!!

I am starting to feel like our little family is complete...it just feels right. Hoping my heart continues to feel that way even as he grows up.

I am also crazy in love with how amazing my girls are doing. They both have their moments of misbehaving but over all they have done so well! They are so in love with their brother it is awesome! Miley wants to kiss him all the time! She still calls him "Baby Hug-o" it is too cute!

Thursday, June 19, 2014

3rd time mom

There are many ways you know you are a first time mom...

When I had Tommi I wrote down everytime she fed, which side, how long (exactly), and how the feed was. I did that for a few weeks.

With Miley I wrote it down a little but not as much detail...for about 2 weeks.

With Waylon...yeah I have written nothing down and hardly pay attention to the time haha

He is my biggest so I am not worried as much but still it is funny how that works.

Baby Hugo!!!!!

Well "baby Hugo" has arrived and his official name is WAYLON THOR FRAZIER. He is referred to as baby Hugo still most of the time haha Poor guy may never live that one down.

His sisters are crazy in love with him! Miley's reactions was PERFECT! She was so excited to meet him and wanted to hold him immediately! It was amazing! Of course Tommi took to him like I expected! They both had hearts in their eyes from moment one!

Well lets rewind and document his birth story...
Saturday June 14th we didn't do anything special I felt pretty normal during the day just like I have been feeling recently nothing "odd". We went to church that evening and TJ's uncle Ronald joked about me being about to pop and I seriously thought "It may be another 2 weeks of this." We came home put the girls to bed and then I hung out for a bit but decided to go to bed about 11pm. I zonked out...
Sunday June 15th at 2:00am I "peed" myself...or so I thought. I got up and laughed b/c I seriously thought I must have had a dream and peed. So I went in and peed some more. I changed my clothes and it occurred to me my water could have broken but it wasn't a big flood (like it was with the  girls) so I doubted it. I laid back down and with my mind racing I started cramping like just mild menstrual cramps, I got up b/c I knew I was not falling back to sleep soon. So I was in and out of the bathroom b/c I felt like I had to pee and pacing. Timing the random contractions I was having but they were mild I only knew if I felt the tightening in my belly (and the fact the fluid kept leaking when I had contractions haha but the cramping was getting worse. I started noticing I was losing my plug when I went to the bathroom so I figured that might be what was going on. So I walked around thinking things might stop soon. But I just didn't feel good. So I woke TJ up at 230ish and told him I didn't feel good. In the back of my mind I knew my water had broken but I was just kinda dilutional I guess (just like I was with Miley) well after talking to him a bit I noticed my contractions were about 2-3 min apart but they still were crampy more than painful contractions. I could still talk through them. But he said we needed to head out...so he called his parents. I tried to text and call mine...just so they knew what was up but no one answered.
We left the house a little after 3am. I called the midwifes to tell them I was headed out.
We got to the hospital and I was really hurting. Finally got to our room and the nurse gave me a gown but when I went to change I really didn't want to b/c I was hurting so bad so I just took off my underwear. I got in bed and told TJ he needed to get the nurse b/c I felt like I needed to push. He went out to let her know. They came back in to check me and sure enough I was ready to go haha
My midwife was not there yet so they talked about finding any dr they could no matter if they were part of the practice I was with or not haha
They got a dr in there and suited up but minutes later my midwife walked in (in flip flops haha) She said I sounded so calm that she didn't rush. The nurses all kept saying the same thing, that I seemed to calm to be as far along as I was.
Well I'm not sure how much time passed or how many times I pushed (but supposedly I am a strong pusher haha) Well it felt like it took forever but FINALLY I delivered and felt like a MILLION bucks b/c he was not easy to deliver! They laid him on my chest and I seriously was on cloud 9. He was SO amazing. The first thing I looked for when they lifted him up to me was if it was for sure a boy! haha and there was no doubt. I seriously was in my own world after that! Just loving him!
After a while they took him away to weigh him and all that. Well he was hard to deliver b/c he was 9LBS!!! Well 8lbs 15.5ozes but they said if he had not pooped in utero (they didn't tell me that till later) he probably would have been 9lbs! I was in total shock but kinda proud of myself.
So I did find out later he pooped in utero but I guess they were not too worried...thank you Jesus!

He was not a happy camper for the first couple hours of life...just really fussy. But after he finally nursed he did well and passed out.

He is the most amazing little thing ever!

Note...arrived at hospital around 3:40am delivered at 4:09am
On our 8th anniversary and Fathers day!

Saturday, June 14, 2014

How are you feeling?

This question is such a kind question....BUT when asked EVERYDAY and multiple times a day for the purpose of wanting to know if I'm feeling labor pains it is one of the most annoying questions ever!!!!! Look people I will tell you when I'm in labor!

The conversation usually is
Them: How are you feeling?
Me: Good. Same as I have been just chugging along.
Them: Aww.

Uhh...seriously? A smile and a "I'm glad you are feeling good." would be REALLY nice. It is like people feel bad for me b/c I am super pregnant. Please people do not feel bad for me...be tough for me! I am emotional, worn out..physically and mentally, and just need POSTIVE comments.

I DO NOT need to hear when YOU think the baby will be here...side note: I do not mind it from my immediate family (mom, dad, brothers, husband) I do not mind if people say "My guess was/is ____." But the "Oh there is no way you will got over due" or the constant change of guesses from people who was not in my comfort zone (which is VERY small) I just don't need their opinion.
Honestly if I could hibernate I would. I honestly would crawl in a hole and sleep b/c I get so tired of the comments. I mean I know no one means any harm but it is just so annoying to hear how big I am or how people feel so bad for me.

I AM FINE! I am carrying a healthy FULL TERM baby! I could not ask for more. If God planned my babies to be late then I'm good with that! I seriously do not want them to come a second sooner than God planned (obviously they can't) but I just praise the Lord for having THREE healthy pregnancies. I mean seriously I am blessed beyond my own understanding to carry my babies. I enjoy them SO much! Yes I have pain and discomfort...ask TJ I complain a lot. Ask my girls they have to sacrifice right now b/c mommy can't do as much.

I would take going overdue over having to pray my babies stay in till a certain point ANY DAY! God created my body to do this, I came into this world predestine to do this.

So please approach me with a POSTIVE attitude. Tell me how great I look (even if you have to lie!!), tell me how great I am doing, tell me I'm tough, tell me I am your hero, I don't care just pat me on the back and help me along.
I have said this a million times I would not be where I am with out my mom and TJ!!! I seriously could not be more thankful for them. They both listen to me complain but don't feel sorry for me b/c they know it is what it is and this baby will come when he is supposed to. They encourage me to keep on keepin on and I NEED that!

So there is my rant...

How am I truly feeling? I am VERY tired, I have had a lot of shooting pains from pressure, he is on a nerve that makes my right leg buckle everyonce in a while, I have burning like my skin is on fire right at my bikini line on my right leg, I have heartburn, I feel like my ribs are about to break, my hands and feet hurt like I have arthritis, I have to wake up and painfully roll over a couple times a night, and with all that said. I am loving his shifts and movements, how he pushes his feet out on my left side where I look like I have a ball coming out the side, I love my big belly b/c it is just fun!, and I love the thought of actually carrying one of Gods miracles, I love to feel tough like at the end of the day that I accomplished something in just getting through another day, and I love that I am fully capable of (almost) fully functioning when SO many have problems by this point.

I know women carry babies and give birth everyday but somehow I feel kinda like I'm super woman just for enduring it all. I love it!

I love being pregnant and am going to miss it but I also am ready to be back to somewhat normal and be able to lean over haha Life is good.

I admit I have been slightly depressed every passing day that I don't have him but then again life is going to get crazy so him staying in allows me time to prepare more. I just want the world to meet the little man and I want to see his face. I feel like I already know him but in reality I am going to meet him too. This is just so fun!

Vent over but I love documenting my thoughts b/c I have done so little of it this time.

Wednesday, June 4, 2014

38 WEEKS

Well here we are 38 weeks with my last baby and precious little boy. I seriously feel the last month has gone by faster than any other month. It has been insane!
How I feel...which I am asked many times daily...I feel 9 months pregnant but I really can't complain much. I have pain and sometimes lots of it, I'm tired, and over all uncomfortable. I have lots of cramps recently! Well if I sit still I feel great! haha But I seriously could have it SO much worse! I am also honestly loving this little guys crazy movements, lots of hiccups, and the belly is fun (except for when it gets in the way). Pregnancy is seriously such a miracle!

I am SO anxious to meet him and love him. I am anxious to have a sweet newborn lay on my chest and just be content. I can not wait to see the girls with their little brother and to create a new little life. It will be VERY challenging but fun!

So I had my 38 week appt today...I had never met this midwife and she was nice but kinda vague and not real warm. So the appt was very fast! She asked if I was using any supplements for labor and I said no...she suggested Gentle Birth but after looking it up it helps with advancing dilation, quicker labor, and quicker recovery. It is not worth buying for me. I will just see how things go on their own...I have loved my last 2 births so I am trusting this one will be good too.
She did check me and I am 1cm, 70% effaced, and baby is at station -2. His heartbeat was 130-140bpm and I am measuring 40 weeks...eek! I have never measured ahead in my other pregnancies but I have a few times in this one.

TJ's guess is June 11 (next Wednesday), mom's guess is June 18 (the next Wednesday) and my guess is June 16 (a week from Monday)

Guess we will see when God has this little one planned!!