I turned the TV on this evening and it was the opening ceremonies where all the countries walk out. Tommi asked what it was so I told her it was all the countries who are competing in the Olympics (then I had to explain the Olympics a little). She got wide eyed and said "Mommy can I stay up to see them walk out with the American flag!" Honestly I was SO ready for her to go to bed b/c she has been grumpy but I could not say no to that!
It made me so happy! I want her to always be that proud of the country she lives in! It may be corrupt in so many ways but that doesn't change that we have freedom and that flag makes me proud of all the men and women who have given their lives to keep us safe!
So we put Miley down and snuggled and watched the people proudly wave our flag and about to kick some booty! :)
Friday, February 7, 2014
Baby frog
So we find out in 4 more days what this munchkin is!!!!! I'm SOOOO excited!!! I believe by far this is my wildest child in utero at this point. Everytime I sit down or am still this baby is flipping and kicking...it is crazy! I LOVE it so much though. I do know that the activity doesn't mean anything for the child b/c Miley was much less active than Tommi and that is not the case now!
I just get so excited to know the gender b/c I feel like I can bond so much more. Like the baby becomes "real" when it has a gender (and a name) We will keep the name part a secret again b/c that is seriously so much fun! I think those closest to me have speculation on names b/c I have mentioned them over the years but the final choice will not be known. Though my mother has known everytime haha. Well that at least goes for a boy. With a girl I have names I love but TJ has vetoed all of them so that will be a tough one to figure out if we have a 3rd girl. I feel like sibling names need to go together especially when it is the same sex so we have some major limits that go up if this is girl #3.
So woohoo! Wednesday morning we have our appointment and both of the girls are going with us...eek not sure how that is gonna go. I will have my phone totally charged in case we have to break out the Mickey to keep Miley entertained!
After the appt the plan (I think) is to blow up either pink or blue balloons for each girl and if they want we will make a video to tell the family or just do a picture depending on the mood. Then after all family knows I will let the world know...so lets hope our family responds quickly so I can announce it to the world!
I just get so excited to know the gender b/c I feel like I can bond so much more. Like the baby becomes "real" when it has a gender (and a name) We will keep the name part a secret again b/c that is seriously so much fun! I think those closest to me have speculation on names b/c I have mentioned them over the years but the final choice will not be known. Though my mother has known everytime haha. Well that at least goes for a boy. With a girl I have names I love but TJ has vetoed all of them so that will be a tough one to figure out if we have a 3rd girl. I feel like sibling names need to go together especially when it is the same sex so we have some major limits that go up if this is girl #3.
So woohoo! Wednesday morning we have our appointment and both of the girls are going with us...eek not sure how that is gonna go. I will have my phone totally charged in case we have to break out the Mickey to keep Miley entertained!
After the appt the plan (I think) is to blow up either pink or blue balloons for each girl and if they want we will make a video to tell the family or just do a picture depending on the mood. Then after all family knows I will let the world know...so lets hope our family responds quickly so I can announce it to the world!
Monday, February 3, 2014
sleep
So the past 2 nights (Saturday and Sunday night) Tommi has slept through the night!!
Sunday morning she got up at 6:50 so I told her if she went back to bed for 10 minutes she could still get her sticker for the night haha She went back down for 40 minutes until Miley woke up! Yay!
Sundaynight/Monday morning she got up and came in my room at midnight and I walked her back to bed and she let me leave almost immediately with no whining. So I called it success since I had not actually fallen asleep yet.
At night when we put her down she is still making us come in every 10 minutes or so to "check on her" silly but if it means no tears and no fears I will do it!
I have never been so thankful to have my girly back (somewhat) I mean that crying and shaking stuff scares me!
Sunday morning she got up at 6:50 so I told her if she went back to bed for 10 minutes she could still get her sticker for the night haha She went back down for 40 minutes until Miley woke up! Yay!
Sundaynight/Monday morning she got up and came in my room at midnight and I walked her back to bed and she let me leave almost immediately with no whining. So I called it success since I had not actually fallen asleep yet.
At night when we put her down she is still making us come in every 10 minutes or so to "check on her" silly but if it means no tears and no fears I will do it!
I have never been so thankful to have my girly back (somewhat) I mean that crying and shaking stuff scares me!
Tuesday, January 28, 2014
Sleep update...
Monday night...
we put TJ's sweatshirt (that he wears often) in her bed with her b/c we heard the smell could possibly make her feel more comfortable. We got her in bed and comfy pretty easy but had to come in and check on her every 10 minutes till FINALLY she fell asleep (after about a hour). Then she slept until 3:15am and she called for me...she didn't cry so that was good. But I cuddled for a bit till she was asleep then I moved...which is not graceful...and she woke up and got teary eyed so I stayed but sat on her bed and she was in and out of sleep. Anytime I tried to leave she got weepy and "shivering" as she calls it. But basically she starts shaking. So after some convincing and telling her she only had a short while till she could get up, she let me leave. So I got back in my bed at around 4am. I have a hard time falling back to sleep after that b/c I am so sad for her. So she slept till 7am when she came to bed with me. Since TJ was gone she just crawled in his side and we "slept" till 8am when Miley woke up.
So over all it was not that bad. I just wish the tears and sadness were not involved.
Tonight...
We didn't get to bed till late so she was super tired. But we had to check on her twice in 10 minute-ish increments again so that was a huge victory! I am praying she sleeps till the morning!!
We made her a chart on Sunday...if she sleeps through the night with no calling and no tears, she gets a sticker. So far we have no stickers but she wants one really bad! So hopefully we will get there. If she gets 7 stickers she gets a prize...she picked a Slurpee as her prize :)
Mommy needs her sleep and to not have to move anymore times than necessary during the night. I just get stiff and have hip and inner thigh pain so it is a bit dramatic to move!
On another note...I'm 20 weeks this week! This baby is a kicker and a shifter when I sit still! It is so fun!!! 2 weeks from tomorrow we have our ultrasound! I have never been so anxious to know the sex and see this munchkin again! I love my little froggie SOO much!! woohoo!
we put TJ's sweatshirt (that he wears often) in her bed with her b/c we heard the smell could possibly make her feel more comfortable. We got her in bed and comfy pretty easy but had to come in and check on her every 10 minutes till FINALLY she fell asleep (after about a hour). Then she slept until 3:15am and she called for me...she didn't cry so that was good. But I cuddled for a bit till she was asleep then I moved...which is not graceful...and she woke up and got teary eyed so I stayed but sat on her bed and she was in and out of sleep. Anytime I tried to leave she got weepy and "shivering" as she calls it. But basically she starts shaking. So after some convincing and telling her she only had a short while till she could get up, she let me leave. So I got back in my bed at around 4am. I have a hard time falling back to sleep after that b/c I am so sad for her. So she slept till 7am when she came to bed with me. Since TJ was gone she just crawled in his side and we "slept" till 8am when Miley woke up.
So over all it was not that bad. I just wish the tears and sadness were not involved.
Tonight...
We didn't get to bed till late so she was super tired. But we had to check on her twice in 10 minute-ish increments again so that was a huge victory! I am praying she sleeps till the morning!!
We made her a chart on Sunday...if she sleeps through the night with no calling and no tears, she gets a sticker. So far we have no stickers but she wants one really bad! So hopefully we will get there. If she gets 7 stickers she gets a prize...she picked a Slurpee as her prize :)
Mommy needs her sleep and to not have to move anymore times than necessary during the night. I just get stiff and have hip and inner thigh pain so it is a bit dramatic to move!
On another note...I'm 20 weeks this week! This baby is a kicker and a shifter when I sit still! It is so fun!!! 2 weeks from tomorrow we have our ultrasound! I have never been so anxious to know the sex and see this munchkin again! I love my little froggie SOO much!! woohoo!
Saturday, January 25, 2014
School...
It just hit me like a ton of bricks today that Tommi will start school in August! I have always felt I was so ready but now I'm not so sure. Our life is so "easy" right now with no real schedule! She has preschool 2 days a week but it doesn't start till 9, is 10 minutes away, and Miley is old enough her mornings are more predictable!
I'm going to have a 2 month old and we will have to leave in the mornings at like 7:30! Hopefully I can get Tommi up and fed and ready before the baby and Miley get up but I doubt that! I'd love to just get them up and throw them in the car and go but we all know how predictable newborns are! I'm just scared the baby will wake up and want to eat when I need to be leaving etc. To prevent that I would have to wake the baby and feed him/her at a reasonable time but again babies are so not predictable.
I want to drive Tommi to school in the beginning. I want to be there for the first week or so to get her to class etc. Then after that my MIL can take over taking her. At that point I can get her up and ready and send her with TJ up to his parents house and she can ride with her from there. But the thought of sending her with out me is REALLY hard to imagine! I feel like I would be letting her down!
I want to cry b/c I'm that not ready in my mind. But then again I'm NOT homeschooling b/c that would not be fair to her to not get the attention she needs b/c I have 2 others to tend to and not have the friends that she would at school.
I'm now questioning my timing of this little munchkin BUT God planned it so of course it will work out!
Again...praying for a Lukey baby that will just go with the flow b/c life is gonna be crazy!!!
I'm going to have a 2 month old and we will have to leave in the mornings at like 7:30! Hopefully I can get Tommi up and fed and ready before the baby and Miley get up but I doubt that! I'd love to just get them up and throw them in the car and go but we all know how predictable newborns are! I'm just scared the baby will wake up and want to eat when I need to be leaving etc. To prevent that I would have to wake the baby and feed him/her at a reasonable time but again babies are so not predictable.
I want to drive Tommi to school in the beginning. I want to be there for the first week or so to get her to class etc. Then after that my MIL can take over taking her. At that point I can get her up and ready and send her with TJ up to his parents house and she can ride with her from there. But the thought of sending her with out me is REALLY hard to imagine! I feel like I would be letting her down!
I want to cry b/c I'm that not ready in my mind. But then again I'm NOT homeschooling b/c that would not be fair to her to not get the attention she needs b/c I have 2 others to tend to and not have the friends that she would at school.
I'm now questioning my timing of this little munchkin BUT God planned it so of course it will work out!
Again...praying for a Lukey baby that will just go with the flow b/c life is gonna be crazy!!!
Thursday, January 23, 2014
A phase?
Well the past 2 nights Tommi has given us some major trouble when putting her to bed. She does everything great then when it comes time for us to walk out the door she can't contain her tears. She literally just cries like she is scared of something but can't tell us what is going on.
Last night I was so frustrated that I did not handle it very well. I basically got mad at her...in the matter of about 30 minutes, she got her nightlights taken way, I got very frustrated, and it was a horrible situation! TJ being the calmer parent in frustrating times was super concerned b/c she was shaking and really upset. In my mind I kept thinking she is just trying to manipulate us. So TJ went in and cuddled with her for 45 minutes or so. He finally came out and I went in and told her I loved her prayed over her and gave her back her nightlights b/c it was too dark with out them and I felt like crap by that point. She needed me and all I could do was get mad b/c she was taking away from my time to chill. Seriously Laura? Mom of the year moment for you...NOT! So she finally did go to sleep after that.
I hardly slept b/c I felt so bad. I prayed and prayed God would just give me the patients to help her like I would if it were during the day and not cutting into my selfish time. And honestly begged for forgiveness b/c I was struggling.
Well tonight went well to start and I thought ok it was a fluke. But nope...the moment I went to walk out the door she pulled out the "I have to pee" so I said no and walked out. Well she came out and was crying on the toilet for some random reason of "she felt like she had to pee and she could only go a little" I started to feel frustrated but didn't go there. So I went in and laid down with her for a while. I went to get up and she just couldn't not cry and kept telling me she wasn't cold but she said she was shivering (she was not actually shivering that I could feel) So I laid with her again and prayed over her (to myself) over and over and thanked God for my issue b/c that means my baby is at home and needing me. Not in a hospital or somewhere I can't control things. I felt peace. She asked TJ to come in for extra kisses then told him to ask me to come do "extra prayers". So I went in and prayed with her and laid with her more then I needed to shower so I told her I was going to do that and I would be back ASAP. She got teary eyed but we talked and I got her all kinds of stuffed animals and offered her 2 stickers that she really wanted. (Weird but whatever works) She seemed to calm and was ok with this. I went out and TJ was in the basement so I had to wait about 20 minutes. Since she didn't call for me I went in before my shower and let her know I had to wait on TJ so I was going to shower now. She told me "I was just praying to God" so I asked her what she was praying about thinking she was praying to be brave etc. She said "I was praying for a baby brother!" and giggled. Lord help me that stinker. I pray she is not disappointed either way! Well anyway I gave her her stickers b/c I was proud of her. She seemed happy. I told her I would be right back. So I took a shower and probably was gone 30 minutes. When I went back in she was sleeping peacefully! So it was an hour process again but 110 times better than yesterday. TJ is super worried about her but I'm thinking she is going through a phase. I have had that "funny feeling to cry" too many times to count and vividly remember my mom comforting me when I felt that way. She never made me feel ashamed and I want Tommi to have that confidence also.
If she needs me then that is where I am going to be! Thankfully Miley goes right down now so no worries of her!
I am SO thankful for peace tonight and patience! I felt like a new person after getting through that tonight with only a few tears. No shaking, no crazy can't breath crying, etc. We did well! I will be moving bedtime back a bit to account for the time she needs to settle but she can't tell time so she will never know!
I needed to document this...it is hard to admit those "bad mom" moments but it happens and I am working hard to be patient and find peace. I want to be the mother God wants me to be. I want to always be there for my kids and be the best for them.
Last night I was so frustrated that I did not handle it very well. I basically got mad at her...in the matter of about 30 minutes, she got her nightlights taken way, I got very frustrated, and it was a horrible situation! TJ being the calmer parent in frustrating times was super concerned b/c she was shaking and really upset. In my mind I kept thinking she is just trying to manipulate us. So TJ went in and cuddled with her for 45 minutes or so. He finally came out and I went in and told her I loved her prayed over her and gave her back her nightlights b/c it was too dark with out them and I felt like crap by that point. She needed me and all I could do was get mad b/c she was taking away from my time to chill. Seriously Laura? Mom of the year moment for you...NOT! So she finally did go to sleep after that.
I hardly slept b/c I felt so bad. I prayed and prayed God would just give me the patients to help her like I would if it were during the day and not cutting into my selfish time. And honestly begged for forgiveness b/c I was struggling.
Well tonight went well to start and I thought ok it was a fluke. But nope...the moment I went to walk out the door she pulled out the "I have to pee" so I said no and walked out. Well she came out and was crying on the toilet for some random reason of "she felt like she had to pee and she could only go a little" I started to feel frustrated but didn't go there. So I went in and laid down with her for a while. I went to get up and she just couldn't not cry and kept telling me she wasn't cold but she said she was shivering (she was not actually shivering that I could feel) So I laid with her again and prayed over her (to myself) over and over and thanked God for my issue b/c that means my baby is at home and needing me. Not in a hospital or somewhere I can't control things. I felt peace. She asked TJ to come in for extra kisses then told him to ask me to come do "extra prayers". So I went in and prayed with her and laid with her more then I needed to shower so I told her I was going to do that and I would be back ASAP. She got teary eyed but we talked and I got her all kinds of stuffed animals and offered her 2 stickers that she really wanted. (Weird but whatever works) She seemed to calm and was ok with this. I went out and TJ was in the basement so I had to wait about 20 minutes. Since she didn't call for me I went in before my shower and let her know I had to wait on TJ so I was going to shower now. She told me "I was just praying to God" so I asked her what she was praying about thinking she was praying to be brave etc. She said "I was praying for a baby brother!" and giggled. Lord help me that stinker. I pray she is not disappointed either way! Well anyway I gave her her stickers b/c I was proud of her. She seemed happy. I told her I would be right back. So I took a shower and probably was gone 30 minutes. When I went back in she was sleeping peacefully! So it was an hour process again but 110 times better than yesterday. TJ is super worried about her but I'm thinking she is going through a phase. I have had that "funny feeling to cry" too many times to count and vividly remember my mom comforting me when I felt that way. She never made me feel ashamed and I want Tommi to have that confidence also.
If she needs me then that is where I am going to be! Thankfully Miley goes right down now so no worries of her!
I am SO thankful for peace tonight and patience! I felt like a new person after getting through that tonight with only a few tears. No shaking, no crazy can't breath crying, etc. We did well! I will be moving bedtime back a bit to account for the time she needs to settle but she can't tell time so she will never know!
I needed to document this...it is hard to admit those "bad mom" moments but it happens and I am working hard to be patient and find peace. I want to be the mother God wants me to be. I want to always be there for my kids and be the best for them.
Monday, January 20, 2014
Weird...
Tonight Tommi was throwing fits over everything and hurt herself twice (jammed her finger and stepped on a toy) in the process of getting mad about something.
So the last one happened when TJ hit her in the leg with a ball on accident...she started crying like he broke her leg and just couldn't calm down. So I sent her to her room to calm down...after she walked out Miley crossed her arms and said very matter of fact "Weird...Tommi is weird" hahaha TJ and I about died it was so funny!
For the record she did calm down and we got our girl back with only minutes to spare before bedtime!
So the last one happened when TJ hit her in the leg with a ball on accident...she started crying like he broke her leg and just couldn't calm down. So I sent her to her room to calm down...after she walked out Miley crossed her arms and said very matter of fact "Weird...Tommi is weird" hahaha TJ and I about died it was so funny!
For the record she did calm down and we got our girl back with only minutes to spare before bedtime!
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