After 6 months (?) I think I finally got on her to update anyone who reads this (aka my mom) I really wish I kept up with this but now with smart phones I do not get on the computer as much.
So life now...
Let's start with the boy...oh how I love having a boy! Not bc he is any more special than my girl (he really is haha totally kidding) but there is just something different. His love is rough and tumble yet so sweet. It is just a different ball game!
Waylon is 13 months old and boy from one side to the other. He started walking a little before he turned 1 so he beat his sisters. Which is no surprise b/c he is so physical. Talking is a different thing, they were full of words. W does a lot of grunting and growling and I love it!!
So to give a glimpse of my boy...he is always on the move, he hits and grabs anything with in his reach, he loves to makes mess, he is obsessed with bats and balls, he is starting to enjoy playing with cars, dirt might be the greatest thing ever in his eyes, he is loves his momma (and his momma is overly fond of him), he also loves to play with his dad, he is lost with out his sisters, he will throw anything that is in his hands at any moment (always be prepared), he is still a very very happy boy, life is just good for our buddy boy. He is very accident prone but most of the time the climbing and rough play do not lead to his injuries. He gets hurt falling while walking or doing something simple. He currently has bruised top gums from a walking accident (tripped on nothing) I just pray he gets through toddler hood with his mouth intact. I really do not want to deal with stitches or broken bones either but God will give me a calm heart if it does come to that. Thinking about it just makes me cringe right now. Lets talk happy...He seriously is such a joy. I love being his momma.
He is in his own room and has been for a couple months. Most nights he sleeps from 10ish (after an hour of nursing and cuddling) till 8ish so that is amazing! I love sleeping through the night. Right now he is off and on sometimes waking up once in the middle of the night to nurse or sometimes just cuddle.
Last week we were in Hatteras which through him off a bit and due to not nursing well he lost interest in the left side so now we are strictly nursing on the right side. Odd but my girls did that. Im struggling to get him to drink much out of a cup. He does know how it works just doesn't want anything from it. I pray he is getting enough from me but not much I can do. I can't force him to drink from a cup. During the day the nursing sessions are short, before lunch and dinner being the shortest. Morning and night are longer with night being the longest.
As for food...he eats everything! Which is so cool! Maybe I will get the eating right with one child.
I wish I could think of more but that is pretty good...
Miley....oh my Miley!
Nothing is new in saying she is a pistol but she really is coming into her own. She is so sassy yet seriously so sweet! Her biggest down fall as far as getting in trouble is terrorizing Tommi. She can drive her sister up a wall. Otherwise we really don't have to discipline her that much which is awesome! But she is still very opinionated and a hot mess! Her eating has yet to improve! So picky that I still find myself just praying she doesn't have damaging effects from how picky she is. I think she will be ok but I hope she will try new things soon. It is often she doesn't eat dinner and goes to bed with only a little snack before bed. She knows she is hungry bc she fusses about it but she has yet to turn the light on to if she tries dinner she will not feel that way.
Since last post she fully potty trained herself!!! Right around her birthday she just decided she was ready and did it quickly. Day and night with in a short period!
The passy also went away when she turned 3. We took her to build a bear and she put her last passys into a pony and that was it. She did amazing!!!
She is also moved in a room with Tommi in bunk beds and she did and is doing amazing with that.
So in the month of January/early February she grew up SO much!
I wish I could get her on film all the time bc the things that come out of this childs mouth leave us speechless and cracking up. She is hilarious!
Today she was doing "eeny meany miney mo" and she said "Get the peoples by the toe" instead of "catch a tiger by his tail" TJ and I seriously died laughing bc she was so serious and her little cartoon voice is too funny.
As we rode home from church this evening she said "Mommy when I was your age and you left me at school..." Ummm Miley I do not think you have ever been my age and you also have never been to school. She insisted this was true even with all the convincing that she has never been left at school...that she has never attended and she also has never been my age.
I seriously can't get enough of her! 25lbs of solid spunk and love!
I have decided not to start her in preschool this year b/c I am just too selfish and want her home as much as I can! I did ask her dr about doing speech but she didn't think we needed to do it yet so I'm not worry about it for now.
Tommi...my big girl!
The school year went well over all but we did struggle at the end with lots of tears again b/c she struggles with change and with SOLs the normal aide in her class was not with them at lunch and Grandma couldn't visit as much at lunch either so she struggled. She is her mommas girl and doesn't like change. But she finish kindergarten strong and on a 2nd grade reading level!!! She is so stinking smart!
I really am praying for a great teacher for her for first grade and a wonderful year b/c she is not excited to go back and wants me to homeschool but I know she will rock it.
Not all that much has changed other than her getting older and wiser ugh! haha She reads everything and there is not hiding things from her. She also has quite the attitude which always has been but boy has it gotten tough. She is just smart and honestly brave. 6 is challenging me! We will get through!
She really is my biggest helper b/c she is such a mommy which is a curse and a blessing. B/c she looks after her siblings but also tries to mother them. I'm so thankful for her help!
We just had her 6 year check up and she is 47" and 47lbs! So almost 4ft tall! She is 50%tile across the board.
At the beginning of the summer I signed Tommi up for swim lessons with the hopes that she would not fear the water so much. She did far beyond my expectations! She was a pro and did so well learning to go underwater and learn how to swim on a basic level. If they offer lessons this fall I plan to sign her up again b/c she found so much confidence with having control in the water and we seriously could not have been more proud of her!
She lost her first tooth last week! It had been wiggly for a month and it finally was so loose it was driving me nuts so I asked her if I tried to pull on it and it hurt to just tell me and I would stop. Well with a tiny tug it was out and she was so thrilled!! The tooth fairy came and gave her $1.25. Her name is Glimmer Mist and the magic of it all has been so fun to watch. She shows everyone her little gap which is not so much a gap since her new tooth is already coming in haha It was already partially in when she lost the tooth.
Oh yeah! Tommi is now doing piano lessons and seems to like it a lot. She does get frustrated that she can't be perfect right away but I love watching her enjoy learning something new!
I feel like she is getting jipped in this update but being 6 (going on 16) there is less to report I guess haha
I seriously have been blessed with some amazing kids! They keep me so busy and frustrate me to the max but I could not be more blessed! I was made to be these kids momma and I am honored I was so blessed!
Sunday, August 2, 2015
Thursday, December 4, 2014
Update
Proof I have 3 kids....I blogged and tracked everything with Tommi, a little less with Miley, and hardly anything with Waylon. Well ok that is not true...I keep track of important things but far less than Tommi.
So lets start with Waylon b/c he is just awesome. He seriously is the best kid ever. He is so happy and really goes with the flow. I am crazy in love with him! He is not perfect in the sleeping anymore but it is not as bad as Miley. He also doesn't like to sleep with me at night so I think that leads to better sleep for me. Everyone who meets him is instantly happier b/c his big whole face smile. He is working on the whole sitting up thing but so far he is not too sturdy. He is rolling both ways and some how prefers his belly now crazy. Still a chunky boy. He is seriously so solid...making carrying the carseat a blast. He loves his sisters so much and just loves to watch them.
Miley is well Miley. She is crazy! There is no slowing her down and she keeps us entertained with her antics. She still has such a baby cartoon voice. It leads to most people not being able to understand her. She is down to only passys in her bed. I'm still debating how I'm going to take them away. She is still so much of my baby. Potty training is a joke. She wants very little to do with it. I need to get serious and work on it bc I need her out of diapers! She is such a sweet little booger though and we are totally buds! Still so tiny but giant in personality.
Tommi is doing phenomenal in school. She is maturing a lot. We do see a lot of acting out at home but I think that is just b/c she has to sit and listen all day so she takes the bad out on us. I seriously can't believe she is in school all day. It is sad to be away from her so much. But she is thriving and we do fine so it is ok. She is not crying any more thank goodness but she still doesn't eat well. I found some granola/chia seed bars she likes so at least she gets something good. I seriously am so amazed and proud of her. She is reading and doing well in everything she does. Pretty incredible!
Life is good! We are finding our groove.
So lets start with Waylon b/c he is just awesome. He seriously is the best kid ever. He is so happy and really goes with the flow. I am crazy in love with him! He is not perfect in the sleeping anymore but it is not as bad as Miley. He also doesn't like to sleep with me at night so I think that leads to better sleep for me. Everyone who meets him is instantly happier b/c his big whole face smile. He is working on the whole sitting up thing but so far he is not too sturdy. He is rolling both ways and some how prefers his belly now crazy. Still a chunky boy. He is seriously so solid...making carrying the carseat a blast. He loves his sisters so much and just loves to watch them.
Miley is well Miley. She is crazy! There is no slowing her down and she keeps us entertained with her antics. She still has such a baby cartoon voice. It leads to most people not being able to understand her. She is down to only passys in her bed. I'm still debating how I'm going to take them away. She is still so much of my baby. Potty training is a joke. She wants very little to do with it. I need to get serious and work on it bc I need her out of diapers! She is such a sweet little booger though and we are totally buds! Still so tiny but giant in personality.
Tommi is doing phenomenal in school. She is maturing a lot. We do see a lot of acting out at home but I think that is just b/c she has to sit and listen all day so she takes the bad out on us. I seriously can't believe she is in school all day. It is sad to be away from her so much. But she is thriving and we do fine so it is ok. She is not crying any more thank goodness but she still doesn't eat well. I found some granola/chia seed bars she likes so at least she gets something good. I seriously am so amazed and proud of her. She is reading and doing well in everything she does. Pretty incredible!
Life is good! We are finding our groove.
Monday, September 29, 2014
Life
Lets start with school...we are starting week 7...holy cow!
So Tommi went 3 full weeks and then the 4th week she went Monday and Tuesday no problem. Wednesday morning she woke up and had some strange anxiety, said her stomach hurt, and wanted me to take her. So I agreed. I chalked it up to constipation. We got there a little late bc I had to round up all the troops but arrived as the announcements finished. She went to class no problem. We headed home and when I got home I sat down to put Waylon to sleep and got a phone call that Tommi had come to the nurse crying and was in the clinic with a 101 fever. WTH! So I picked her up. We got home and temp was 99. It never went back up and she didn't seem like she felt bad other than her stomach cramped every once in a while. So she stayed home Thursday also b/c she had the fever Wednesday at school. Friday she went to school and was fine.
Week 5 Tommi went to school Monday and Tuesday. Wednesday she woke up and her throat hurt but we didn't see anything so she went and about 1230 TJ got a call from his mom that Tommi had been laying her head down all morning and was crying at lunch. Her temp was 100. So TJ picked her up and brought her home. She laid on the couch all afternoon she was running a 99-100 fever. That night she went to bed and when I went in to turn her reading lights off she was burning up. Her fever was 104! All morning Thursday she was on the couch with a 100-101 temp and just seemed so miserable...at noon her temp spiked to 103. She was whining of her stomach hurting, sore throat, and had no appetite. So I just felt the need to take her in to the dr. I gave her Tylenol at noon and after that she pepped up a bit. I was brave and took all 3 kids at naptime but felt she needed to be seen b/c I was fearing strep though we saw nothing in her throat. Well the dr said there was nothing to swab in her throat so she said despite her thoughts it was not strep. So she did a test for mono...a blood test...yes not fun! Well it came back as mono...meaning it is a virus so there is nothing that we can do but we at least knew. So she is supposed to be out of contact sports for 3 weeks due to possible enlarged spleen and if hit it can rupture. So she ran a low temp Thursday evening of 100. But we never gave meds b/c she was comfortable. That was her last temp. So it was a quick one. The dr said we would probably not know if Waylon or Miley got it b/c it is so minor in littler kids. But good news is she is done with mono and will never have to worry about it again.
Week 6
We had major anxiety and tears ALL week.
I took her Monday morning and she cried and clung to me begging me not to leave her. THAT WAS SO HARD!!!
The rest of the week she would cry when she left me, cry when she left Barbara, lunch time, and many times through out the day. So there was lots of emails with teacher and just convo with everyone wondering what could be going on. My heart broke so much for her.
Week 7
Monday-NO TEARS! Thank you Jesus. Praying the rest of the week will be great. I think as of now she just had so much anxiety about going back and ending up not feeling good again and I wouldn't be there. She said this morning "I cant do this" and "My stomach hurts too bad to go" but she went and did well. At bedtime again she said "I can't do this" but I know she will do great.
Week 5 was a tough on b/c that Monday on the way to town Miley started throwing up. Ugh! She threw up a couple times in the car and didn't eat anything but apple sauce on Monday or Tuesday. But she was fine after that. That Sunday she had eaten a bunch of nuts and that is all she was throwing up with a tiny bit of liquid and they were hardly chewed up. So not sure if a bug made her sick or the nuts but it was a crappy week.
Tommi is growing up and showing so much maturity and amazing me with all she is learning in school.
Miley is a pistol as always and has us cracking up all the time!
Waylon is still amazing! He has his little moments of fussing here and there but seriously he is the most amazing child ever. He is so happy and content most of the time. I am just in awe of him! He is perfection!
Now if I can get into a routine and catch up on house work I will be doing much better. But that is life and I am loving it...well feeling disappointed in myself but I'll be good! My kids are awesome!
Tommi did start soccer the other week and she is such a hoot. She just runs around and cheers, rarely touching the ball but she LOVES it! She is getting better but as long as she loves it and is working up a good sweat, I could care less if she is just the cheerleader.
So Tommi went 3 full weeks and then the 4th week she went Monday and Tuesday no problem. Wednesday morning she woke up and had some strange anxiety, said her stomach hurt, and wanted me to take her. So I agreed. I chalked it up to constipation. We got there a little late bc I had to round up all the troops but arrived as the announcements finished. She went to class no problem. We headed home and when I got home I sat down to put Waylon to sleep and got a phone call that Tommi had come to the nurse crying and was in the clinic with a 101 fever. WTH! So I picked her up. We got home and temp was 99. It never went back up and she didn't seem like she felt bad other than her stomach cramped every once in a while. So she stayed home Thursday also b/c she had the fever Wednesday at school. Friday she went to school and was fine.
Week 5 Tommi went to school Monday and Tuesday. Wednesday she woke up and her throat hurt but we didn't see anything so she went and about 1230 TJ got a call from his mom that Tommi had been laying her head down all morning and was crying at lunch. Her temp was 100. So TJ picked her up and brought her home. She laid on the couch all afternoon she was running a 99-100 fever. That night she went to bed and when I went in to turn her reading lights off she was burning up. Her fever was 104! All morning Thursday she was on the couch with a 100-101 temp and just seemed so miserable...at noon her temp spiked to 103. She was whining of her stomach hurting, sore throat, and had no appetite. So I just felt the need to take her in to the dr. I gave her Tylenol at noon and after that she pepped up a bit. I was brave and took all 3 kids at naptime but felt she needed to be seen b/c I was fearing strep though we saw nothing in her throat. Well the dr said there was nothing to swab in her throat so she said despite her thoughts it was not strep. So she did a test for mono...a blood test...yes not fun! Well it came back as mono...meaning it is a virus so there is nothing that we can do but we at least knew. So she is supposed to be out of contact sports for 3 weeks due to possible enlarged spleen and if hit it can rupture. So she ran a low temp Thursday evening of 100. But we never gave meds b/c she was comfortable. That was her last temp. So it was a quick one. The dr said we would probably not know if Waylon or Miley got it b/c it is so minor in littler kids. But good news is she is done with mono and will never have to worry about it again.
Week 6
We had major anxiety and tears ALL week.
I took her Monday morning and she cried and clung to me begging me not to leave her. THAT WAS SO HARD!!!
The rest of the week she would cry when she left me, cry when she left Barbara, lunch time, and many times through out the day. So there was lots of emails with teacher and just convo with everyone wondering what could be going on. My heart broke so much for her.
Week 7
Monday-NO TEARS! Thank you Jesus. Praying the rest of the week will be great. I think as of now she just had so much anxiety about going back and ending up not feeling good again and I wouldn't be there. She said this morning "I cant do this" and "My stomach hurts too bad to go" but she went and did well. At bedtime again she said "I can't do this" but I know she will do great.
Week 5 was a tough on b/c that Monday on the way to town Miley started throwing up. Ugh! She threw up a couple times in the car and didn't eat anything but apple sauce on Monday or Tuesday. But she was fine after that. That Sunday she had eaten a bunch of nuts and that is all she was throwing up with a tiny bit of liquid and they were hardly chewed up. So not sure if a bug made her sick or the nuts but it was a crappy week.
Tommi is growing up and showing so much maturity and amazing me with all she is learning in school.
Miley is a pistol as always and has us cracking up all the time!
Waylon is still amazing! He has his little moments of fussing here and there but seriously he is the most amazing child ever. He is so happy and content most of the time. I am just in awe of him! He is perfection!
Now if I can get into a routine and catch up on house work I will be doing much better. But that is life and I am loving it...well feeling disappointed in myself but I'll be good! My kids are awesome!
Tommi did start soccer the other week and she is such a hoot. She just runs around and cheers, rarely touching the ball but she LOVES it! She is getting better but as long as she loves it and is working up a good sweat, I could care less if she is just the cheerleader.
Wednesday, August 20, 2014
School is in session...
So we are officially going into day 4 of school...
My life is already so different. I kinda feel lost during the day b/c I have 2 little kids and no "bigger kid" conversation. I have found Miley is easier with out Tommi around b/c she is not constantly on edge that someone is going to do her wrong. I have enjoyed our time together already.
So how did it go? How is it going?
Day 1- Dispite staying up till 11 pm the night before due to excitement (yes she was in her bed!) Tommi woke up with bells on. SOOOO ready. We made pancakes but she didn't eat. So we went to school and she was ready but wanted me to hold her hand as we walked to class...gladly my sweet girl, gladly. So I held it together...until I stepped out of the room. I lost it to say the least...I think I even scared some kids. I was a total mess! I got to my van and was losing it...it really was so sad. I felt like my heart was just ripped out, like I was giving my baby away. I seriously thought about going in and saying "Never mind, I can't do this." I called my mom who helped a lot. By the time I got home I felt much better.
By the afternoon I was SOOO anxious to get her back. She came home bouncing off the walls. She loved school as expected. She made friends and was thrilled with it all.
Day 2- A bit tougher to wake up. But she was asleep by 845pm so that should have helped. No tears. She led me to her class. She said it was a good day. Still very excited about it.
Day 3- Still not liking getting up but was asleep by 815pm the night before so we are getting used to this earlier bed time. But ready for school! No tears and she ran ahead of me to class.
After school the helper didn't trust Tommi when she said she was supposed to go to her grandmothers classroom so they stuck her in the cafeteria and she cried but of course grandma got her but she was a bit shaken b/c she didn't like the change of routine. But the teacher is aware and will make sure it doesn't happen again.
The first day she ate a little at lunch but ate the rest on the way home. The 2nd day she ate a little at lunch, someone else ate some of her food before leaving school, snacked a little on the way home but had food left. Day 3 she came home with a full lunch box minus her chocolate chip muffins. She doesn't eat much breakfast, barely snacks, then doesn't eat lunch. It is crazy but I'm hoping it is a phase.
I'm settling into routine. The early wake up is tough b/c Waylon likes to stay up late then I need me time so I don't get a lot of sleep but hopefully with time he will get into routine and we will do better.
I hate her being gone all day but it is nice to see how much she loves it!
My life is already so different. I kinda feel lost during the day b/c I have 2 little kids and no "bigger kid" conversation. I have found Miley is easier with out Tommi around b/c she is not constantly on edge that someone is going to do her wrong. I have enjoyed our time together already.
So how did it go? How is it going?
Day 1- Dispite staying up till 11 pm the night before due to excitement (yes she was in her bed!) Tommi woke up with bells on. SOOOO ready. We made pancakes but she didn't eat. So we went to school and she was ready but wanted me to hold her hand as we walked to class...gladly my sweet girl, gladly. So I held it together...until I stepped out of the room. I lost it to say the least...I think I even scared some kids. I was a total mess! I got to my van and was losing it...it really was so sad. I felt like my heart was just ripped out, like I was giving my baby away. I seriously thought about going in and saying "Never mind, I can't do this." I called my mom who helped a lot. By the time I got home I felt much better.
By the afternoon I was SOOO anxious to get her back. She came home bouncing off the walls. She loved school as expected. She made friends and was thrilled with it all.
Day 2- A bit tougher to wake up. But she was asleep by 845pm so that should have helped. No tears. She led me to her class. She said it was a good day. Still very excited about it.
Day 3- Still not liking getting up but was asleep by 815pm the night before so we are getting used to this earlier bed time. But ready for school! No tears and she ran ahead of me to class.
After school the helper didn't trust Tommi when she said she was supposed to go to her grandmothers classroom so they stuck her in the cafeteria and she cried but of course grandma got her but she was a bit shaken b/c she didn't like the change of routine. But the teacher is aware and will make sure it doesn't happen again.
The first day she ate a little at lunch but ate the rest on the way home. The 2nd day she ate a little at lunch, someone else ate some of her food before leaving school, snacked a little on the way home but had food left. Day 3 she came home with a full lunch box minus her chocolate chip muffins. She doesn't eat much breakfast, barely snacks, then doesn't eat lunch. It is crazy but I'm hoping it is a phase.
I'm settling into routine. The early wake up is tough b/c Waylon likes to stay up late then I need me time so I don't get a lot of sleep but hopefully with time he will get into routine and we will do better.
I hate her being gone all day but it is nice to see how much she loves it!
Wednesday, August 6, 2014
Not ready for school
Well Tommi starts school in a week and a half and I'm SO not ready.
I'm not ready to not be in control and take care of her all the time. To not be there to have her back all the time. I'm not ready for her to have to eat lunch with out my help.
I'm just plain not ready. She is such a tender soul, though she is tough as nails. I just hope she is nice to everyone b/c in a new situations she sometimes lashes out.
I know she is ready...like REALLY ready. Not only b/c she is smart and needs more of a challenge but b/c she is ready for new friends and the lessons of life.
She is really excited and I am really excited for her. The distance will be good (esp since she has a major tude now!) but I will be counting the minutes till she comes back to me and tells me all about it!!!!
I have such mixed emotions but ready or not here it comes and I will take the bull by the horns and this will be good!
I am loving the back to school shopping for supplies and clothes! Plus I can't wait to go see her new classroom and all the fun school stuff that goes with it! I used to love going in to find my desk and the newness of friends and meeting the teacher!
This WILL be good and God promised to see me through so he will!
I'm not ready to not be in control and take care of her all the time. To not be there to have her back all the time. I'm not ready for her to have to eat lunch with out my help.
I'm just plain not ready. She is such a tender soul, though she is tough as nails. I just hope she is nice to everyone b/c in a new situations she sometimes lashes out.
I know she is ready...like REALLY ready. Not only b/c she is smart and needs more of a challenge but b/c she is ready for new friends and the lessons of life.
She is really excited and I am really excited for her. The distance will be good (esp since she has a major tude now!) but I will be counting the minutes till she comes back to me and tells me all about it!!!!
I have such mixed emotions but ready or not here it comes and I will take the bull by the horns and this will be good!
I am loving the back to school shopping for supplies and clothes! Plus I can't wait to go see her new classroom and all the fun school stuff that goes with it! I used to love going in to find my desk and the newness of friends and meeting the teacher!
This WILL be good and God promised to see me through so he will!
Miley passy
As of last week we started limiting Miley's passys to bed and the car. She has done amazing...especially for an addict. She asks everyonce in a while but is so good about putting it in the bowl in the morning and leaving it in the car! Thank you Jesus.
We will have to take it away totally soon but for now this is amazing. She seems like she has grown up so much and is a lot less whiney!
The first day she picked up one of Waylon's passys and I said "What are you doing?" She said "Just trying it out for a little while." wow
Then the other day she said "I need a passy to cover my lips."
This girl is a ham and seriously has us cracking up all the time.
My spunky girl for sure!
We will have to take it away totally soon but for now this is amazing. She seems like she has grown up so much and is a lot less whiney!
The first day she picked up one of Waylon's passys and I said "What are you doing?" She said "Just trying it out for a little while." wow
Then the other day she said "I need a passy to cover my lips."
This girl is a ham and seriously has us cracking up all the time.
My spunky girl for sure!
7 weeks
Well Waylon has been here for over 7 weeks now...it feels like he was just born.
He is still a dream baby! He is so laid back and just goes with the flow. He seriously fits right in! He eats, sleeps, poops, observes, smiles, and snuggles. It is a dream come true. I am crazy in love with him...to be expected but it still amazes me everytime how much you can love another human who really has no "true" personality.
He eats every 2-4 hours then kinda cluster feeds for an hour at night after the girls go to bed. Then he goes to his bed and sleeps till around 3, snacks, then is back down till 6 ish, snacks, then back to bed till usually around 9. It is AWESOME! Night time before bed is his most demanding time b/c he just wants to nurse and snuggle. But he sleep all night in his own bed.
I co-slept with the girls and loved the snuggles but I think I am much happier with a child who stays in his bed. If he was a demanding newborn like the girls, he would be in my bed but he likes his bed. So that is a win-win for us all!
He is the noisiest little sleeper. He makes noises all the time.
He weighed 11lbs 14oz as of last Thursday at 6 weeks! So he is my big boy still!
His eyes are still a dark blue so we will see if that changes.
He LOVES to be outside and it has been really pretty and mild lately so that is so nice that he can get some good outside time.
The girls are still goo-goo over him. Tommi holds him a lot and most of the time he will just cuddle up and sleep in her arms, even if I hand him to her awake. He is SO good about just falling asleep when held it is awesome. The girls LOVE to talk to him and ask about him immediately when they get up. Miley LOVES to kiss him. She also still calls him "baby Hug-o" sometimes but most of the time he is "Yalen baby" She shows him to everyone and tells anyone who is around "That my baby brother" It is awesome. Tommi of course loves to show him off too. She is so proud of him! They both say he is their baby :) Poor guy has so much love he is smothered.
He is not a big carseat fan but not bad. He doesn't like to sleep in it much but is quiet and will fade in and out during the day if we are out. But night driving with him is horrible. He screams until you take him out and then he is totally content. If it was not dangerous I would totally just hold him in the car b/c he is happy in my arms...always!
He started smiling last week and though it is only once or twice a day it is so awesome!
When put on his tummy he just lays his head down. He honestly doesn't even try to look around. But when holding him upright on my shoulder he is all eyes everywhere and lifting his head to look if I have him on my chest. I think he is just lazy and doesn't want to have to work so he just chills. Plus his head is heavy!
I made him max out his newborns so he just moved to 0-3 months all the time but he won't be in them long. Some are getting pretty tight.
He is my perfect little man! Seriously crazy in love!
He is still a dream baby! He is so laid back and just goes with the flow. He seriously fits right in! He eats, sleeps, poops, observes, smiles, and snuggles. It is a dream come true. I am crazy in love with him...to be expected but it still amazes me everytime how much you can love another human who really has no "true" personality.
He eats every 2-4 hours then kinda cluster feeds for an hour at night after the girls go to bed. Then he goes to his bed and sleeps till around 3, snacks, then is back down till 6 ish, snacks, then back to bed till usually around 9. It is AWESOME! Night time before bed is his most demanding time b/c he just wants to nurse and snuggle. But he sleep all night in his own bed.
I co-slept with the girls and loved the snuggles but I think I am much happier with a child who stays in his bed. If he was a demanding newborn like the girls, he would be in my bed but he likes his bed. So that is a win-win for us all!
He is the noisiest little sleeper. He makes noises all the time.
He weighed 11lbs 14oz as of last Thursday at 6 weeks! So he is my big boy still!
His eyes are still a dark blue so we will see if that changes.
He LOVES to be outside and it has been really pretty and mild lately so that is so nice that he can get some good outside time.
The girls are still goo-goo over him. Tommi holds him a lot and most of the time he will just cuddle up and sleep in her arms, even if I hand him to her awake. He is SO good about just falling asleep when held it is awesome. The girls LOVE to talk to him and ask about him immediately when they get up. Miley LOVES to kiss him. She also still calls him "baby Hug-o" sometimes but most of the time he is "Yalen baby" She shows him to everyone and tells anyone who is around "That my baby brother" It is awesome. Tommi of course loves to show him off too. She is so proud of him! They both say he is their baby :) Poor guy has so much love he is smothered.
He is not a big carseat fan but not bad. He doesn't like to sleep in it much but is quiet and will fade in and out during the day if we are out. But night driving with him is horrible. He screams until you take him out and then he is totally content. If it was not dangerous I would totally just hold him in the car b/c he is happy in my arms...always!
He started smiling last week and though it is only once or twice a day it is so awesome!
When put on his tummy he just lays his head down. He honestly doesn't even try to look around. But when holding him upright on my shoulder he is all eyes everywhere and lifting his head to look if I have him on my chest. I think he is just lazy and doesn't want to have to work so he just chills. Plus his head is heavy!
I made him max out his newborns so he just moved to 0-3 months all the time but he won't be in them long. Some are getting pretty tight.
He is my perfect little man! Seriously crazy in love!
Wednesday, June 25, 2014
So crazy in love...
I have so many men in my life that I love so much...but I think I found the one that trumps them all! :)
I keep saying knock on wood that things don't shift as he "wakes up" more. But so far Waylon has been my easiest baby BY FAR! This also may be exaggerated b/c he is my third so I am MUCH less nervous.
He seriously LOVES to sleep. He wakes (on his own) every 2 to 3 hours to eat and he eats like a mad man then sometimes he hang out awake for a short while (rare) but most of the time he just goes back to sleep until he needs to eat again! It is crazy! Now I know this will change and I'm ok with that but for now I am enjoying the gentle transition into having 3 kids. I do pray he stays easy and continues to just go with the flow.
Waylon is so cuddly too. He somehow find the perfect position when cuddling it is awesome.
He is also the king of hiccups which disturbs his sleep sometimes but we figure it out.
He loves his momma haha I think all my kids have at this stage though b.c I kinda am the main caregiver and food source.
I'm seriously just so crazy in love with him and his sweet self. I just love to kiss his sweet face and snuggle him.
Night is the same as day in that he wakes every 3 or so hours to eat but he eats and is back to sleep!
Praying hard he stays not fussy.
So I also have to say how crazy in love with my husband I am right now. He is stepping it up like never before it is SO amazing! I seriously don't have to even ask for help most of the time, he just volunteers and takes things on I never expect him to. I am SO blessed!!!
I am starting to feel like our little family is complete...it just feels right. Hoping my heart continues to feel that way even as he grows up.
I am also crazy in love with how amazing my girls are doing. They both have their moments of misbehaving but over all they have done so well! They are so in love with their brother it is awesome! Miley wants to kiss him all the time! She still calls him "Baby Hug-o" it is too cute!
I keep saying knock on wood that things don't shift as he "wakes up" more. But so far Waylon has been my easiest baby BY FAR! This also may be exaggerated b/c he is my third so I am MUCH less nervous.
He seriously LOVES to sleep. He wakes (on his own) every 2 to 3 hours to eat and he eats like a mad man then sometimes he hang out awake for a short while (rare) but most of the time he just goes back to sleep until he needs to eat again! It is crazy! Now I know this will change and I'm ok with that but for now I am enjoying the gentle transition into having 3 kids. I do pray he stays easy and continues to just go with the flow.
Waylon is so cuddly too. He somehow find the perfect position when cuddling it is awesome.
He is also the king of hiccups which disturbs his sleep sometimes but we figure it out.
He loves his momma haha I think all my kids have at this stage though b.c I kinda am the main caregiver and food source.
I'm seriously just so crazy in love with him and his sweet self. I just love to kiss his sweet face and snuggle him.
Night is the same as day in that he wakes every 3 or so hours to eat but he eats and is back to sleep!
Praying hard he stays not fussy.
So I also have to say how crazy in love with my husband I am right now. He is stepping it up like never before it is SO amazing! I seriously don't have to even ask for help most of the time, he just volunteers and takes things on I never expect him to. I am SO blessed!!!
I am starting to feel like our little family is complete...it just feels right. Hoping my heart continues to feel that way even as he grows up.
I am also crazy in love with how amazing my girls are doing. They both have their moments of misbehaving but over all they have done so well! They are so in love with their brother it is awesome! Miley wants to kiss him all the time! She still calls him "Baby Hug-o" it is too cute!
Thursday, June 19, 2014
3rd time mom
There are many ways you know you are a first time mom...
When I had Tommi I wrote down everytime she fed, which side, how long (exactly), and how the feed was. I did that for a few weeks.
With Miley I wrote it down a little but not as much detail...for about 2 weeks.
With Waylon...yeah I have written nothing down and hardly pay attention to the time haha
He is my biggest so I am not worried as much but still it is funny how that works.
When I had Tommi I wrote down everytime she fed, which side, how long (exactly), and how the feed was. I did that for a few weeks.
With Miley I wrote it down a little but not as much detail...for about 2 weeks.
With Waylon...yeah I have written nothing down and hardly pay attention to the time haha
He is my biggest so I am not worried as much but still it is funny how that works.
Baby Hugo!!!!!
Well "baby Hugo" has arrived and his official name is WAYLON THOR FRAZIER. He is referred to as baby Hugo still most of the time haha Poor guy may never live that one down.
His sisters are crazy in love with him! Miley's reactions was PERFECT! She was so excited to meet him and wanted to hold him immediately! It was amazing! Of course Tommi took to him like I expected! They both had hearts in their eyes from moment one!
Well lets rewind and document his birth story...
Saturday June 14th we didn't do anything special I felt pretty normal during the day just like I have been feeling recently nothing "odd". We went to church that evening and TJ's uncle Ronald joked about me being about to pop and I seriously thought "It may be another 2 weeks of this." We came home put the girls to bed and then I hung out for a bit but decided to go to bed about 11pm. I zonked out...
Sunday June 15th at 2:00am I "peed" myself...or so I thought. I got up and laughed b/c I seriously thought I must have had a dream and peed. So I went in and peed some more. I changed my clothes and it occurred to me my water could have broken but it wasn't a big flood (like it was with the girls) so I doubted it. I laid back down and with my mind racing I started cramping like just mild menstrual cramps, I got up b/c I knew I was not falling back to sleep soon. So I was in and out of the bathroom b/c I felt like I had to pee and pacing. Timing the random contractions I was having but they were mild I only knew if I felt the tightening in my belly (and the fact the fluid kept leaking when I had contractions haha but the cramping was getting worse. I started noticing I was losing my plug when I went to the bathroom so I figured that might be what was going on. So I walked around thinking things might stop soon. But I just didn't feel good. So I woke TJ up at 230ish and told him I didn't feel good. In the back of my mind I knew my water had broken but I was just kinda dilutional I guess (just like I was with Miley) well after talking to him a bit I noticed my contractions were about 2-3 min apart but they still were crampy more than painful contractions. I could still talk through them. But he said we needed to head out...so he called his parents. I tried to text and call mine...just so they knew what was up but no one answered.
We left the house a little after 3am. I called the midwifes to tell them I was headed out.
We got to the hospital and I was really hurting. Finally got to our room and the nurse gave me a gown but when I went to change I really didn't want to b/c I was hurting so bad so I just took off my underwear. I got in bed and told TJ he needed to get the nurse b/c I felt like I needed to push. He went out to let her know. They came back in to check me and sure enough I was ready to go haha
My midwife was not there yet so they talked about finding any dr they could no matter if they were part of the practice I was with or not haha
They got a dr in there and suited up but minutes later my midwife walked in (in flip flops haha) She said I sounded so calm that she didn't rush. The nurses all kept saying the same thing, that I seemed to calm to be as far along as I was.
Well I'm not sure how much time passed or how many times I pushed (but supposedly I am a strong pusher haha) Well it felt like it took forever but FINALLY I delivered and felt like a MILLION bucks b/c he was not easy to deliver! They laid him on my chest and I seriously was on cloud 9. He was SO amazing. The first thing I looked for when they lifted him up to me was if it was for sure a boy! haha and there was no doubt. I seriously was in my own world after that! Just loving him!
After a while they took him away to weigh him and all that. Well he was hard to deliver b/c he was 9LBS!!! Well 8lbs 15.5ozes but they said if he had not pooped in utero (they didn't tell me that till later) he probably would have been 9lbs! I was in total shock but kinda proud of myself.
So I did find out later he pooped in utero but I guess they were not too worried...thank you Jesus!
He was not a happy camper for the first couple hours of life...just really fussy. But after he finally nursed he did well and passed out.
He is the most amazing little thing ever!
Note...arrived at hospital around 3:40am delivered at 4:09am
On our 8th anniversary and Fathers day!
His sisters are crazy in love with him! Miley's reactions was PERFECT! She was so excited to meet him and wanted to hold him immediately! It was amazing! Of course Tommi took to him like I expected! They both had hearts in their eyes from moment one!
Well lets rewind and document his birth story...
Saturday June 14th we didn't do anything special I felt pretty normal during the day just like I have been feeling recently nothing "odd". We went to church that evening and TJ's uncle Ronald joked about me being about to pop and I seriously thought "It may be another 2 weeks of this." We came home put the girls to bed and then I hung out for a bit but decided to go to bed about 11pm. I zonked out...
Sunday June 15th at 2:00am I "peed" myself...or so I thought. I got up and laughed b/c I seriously thought I must have had a dream and peed. So I went in and peed some more. I changed my clothes and it occurred to me my water could have broken but it wasn't a big flood (like it was with the girls) so I doubted it. I laid back down and with my mind racing I started cramping like just mild menstrual cramps, I got up b/c I knew I was not falling back to sleep soon. So I was in and out of the bathroom b/c I felt like I had to pee and pacing. Timing the random contractions I was having but they were mild I only knew if I felt the tightening in my belly (and the fact the fluid kept leaking when I had contractions haha but the cramping was getting worse. I started noticing I was losing my plug when I went to the bathroom so I figured that might be what was going on. So I walked around thinking things might stop soon. But I just didn't feel good. So I woke TJ up at 230ish and told him I didn't feel good. In the back of my mind I knew my water had broken but I was just kinda dilutional I guess (just like I was with Miley) well after talking to him a bit I noticed my contractions were about 2-3 min apart but they still were crampy more than painful contractions. I could still talk through them. But he said we needed to head out...so he called his parents. I tried to text and call mine...just so they knew what was up but no one answered.
We left the house a little after 3am. I called the midwifes to tell them I was headed out.
We got to the hospital and I was really hurting. Finally got to our room and the nurse gave me a gown but when I went to change I really didn't want to b/c I was hurting so bad so I just took off my underwear. I got in bed and told TJ he needed to get the nurse b/c I felt like I needed to push. He went out to let her know. They came back in to check me and sure enough I was ready to go haha
My midwife was not there yet so they talked about finding any dr they could no matter if they were part of the practice I was with or not haha
They got a dr in there and suited up but minutes later my midwife walked in (in flip flops haha) She said I sounded so calm that she didn't rush. The nurses all kept saying the same thing, that I seemed to calm to be as far along as I was.
Well I'm not sure how much time passed or how many times I pushed (but supposedly I am a strong pusher haha) Well it felt like it took forever but FINALLY I delivered and felt like a MILLION bucks b/c he was not easy to deliver! They laid him on my chest and I seriously was on cloud 9. He was SO amazing. The first thing I looked for when they lifted him up to me was if it was for sure a boy! haha and there was no doubt. I seriously was in my own world after that! Just loving him!
After a while they took him away to weigh him and all that. Well he was hard to deliver b/c he was 9LBS!!! Well 8lbs 15.5ozes but they said if he had not pooped in utero (they didn't tell me that till later) he probably would have been 9lbs! I was in total shock but kinda proud of myself.
So I did find out later he pooped in utero but I guess they were not too worried...thank you Jesus!
He was not a happy camper for the first couple hours of life...just really fussy. But after he finally nursed he did well and passed out.
He is the most amazing little thing ever!
Note...arrived at hospital around 3:40am delivered at 4:09am
On our 8th anniversary and Fathers day!
Saturday, June 14, 2014
How are you feeling?
This question is such a kind question....BUT when asked EVERYDAY and multiple times a day for the purpose of wanting to know if I'm feeling labor pains it is one of the most annoying questions ever!!!!! Look people I will tell you when I'm in labor!
The conversation usually is
Them: How are you feeling?
Me: Good. Same as I have been just chugging along.
Them: Aww.
Uhh...seriously? A smile and a "I'm glad you are feeling good." would be REALLY nice. It is like people feel bad for me b/c I am super pregnant. Please people do not feel bad for me...be tough for me! I am emotional, worn out..physically and mentally, and just need POSTIVE comments.
I DO NOT need to hear when YOU think the baby will be here...side note: I do not mind it from my immediate family (mom, dad, brothers, husband) I do not mind if people say "My guess was/is ____." But the "Oh there is no way you will got over due" or the constant change of guesses from people who was not in my comfort zone (which is VERY small) I just don't need their opinion.
Honestly if I could hibernate I would. I honestly would crawl in a hole and sleep b/c I get so tired of the comments. I mean I know no one means any harm but it is just so annoying to hear how big I am or how people feel so bad for me.
I AM FINE! I am carrying a healthy FULL TERM baby! I could not ask for more. If God planned my babies to be late then I'm good with that! I seriously do not want them to come a second sooner than God planned (obviously they can't) but I just praise the Lord for having THREE healthy pregnancies. I mean seriously I am blessed beyond my own understanding to carry my babies. I enjoy them SO much! Yes I have pain and discomfort...ask TJ I complain a lot. Ask my girls they have to sacrifice right now b/c mommy can't do as much.
I would take going overdue over having to pray my babies stay in till a certain point ANY DAY! God created my body to do this, I came into this world predestine to do this.
So please approach me with a POSTIVE attitude. Tell me how great I look (even if you have to lie!!), tell me how great I am doing, tell me I'm tough, tell me I am your hero, I don't care just pat me on the back and help me along.
I have said this a million times I would not be where I am with out my mom and TJ!!! I seriously could not be more thankful for them. They both listen to me complain but don't feel sorry for me b/c they know it is what it is and this baby will come when he is supposed to. They encourage me to keep on keepin on and I NEED that!
So there is my rant...
How am I truly feeling? I am VERY tired, I have had a lot of shooting pains from pressure, he is on a nerve that makes my right leg buckle everyonce in a while, I have burning like my skin is on fire right at my bikini line on my right leg, I have heartburn, I feel like my ribs are about to break, my hands and feet hurt like I have arthritis, I have to wake up and painfully roll over a couple times a night, and with all that said. I am loving his shifts and movements, how he pushes his feet out on my left side where I look like I have a ball coming out the side, I love my big belly b/c it is just fun!, and I love the thought of actually carrying one of Gods miracles, I love to feel tough like at the end of the day that I accomplished something in just getting through another day, and I love that I am fully capable of (almost) fully functioning when SO many have problems by this point.
I know women carry babies and give birth everyday but somehow I feel kinda like I'm super woman just for enduring it all. I love it!
I love being pregnant and am going to miss it but I also am ready to be back to somewhat normal and be able to lean over haha Life is good.
I admit I have been slightly depressed every passing day that I don't have him but then again life is going to get crazy so him staying in allows me time to prepare more. I just want the world to meet the little man and I want to see his face. I feel like I already know him but in reality I am going to meet him too. This is just so fun!
Vent over but I love documenting my thoughts b/c I have done so little of it this time.
The conversation usually is
Them: How are you feeling?
Me: Good. Same as I have been just chugging along.
Them: Aww.
Uhh...seriously? A smile and a "I'm glad you are feeling good." would be REALLY nice. It is like people feel bad for me b/c I am super pregnant. Please people do not feel bad for me...be tough for me! I am emotional, worn out..physically and mentally, and just need POSTIVE comments.
I DO NOT need to hear when YOU think the baby will be here...side note: I do not mind it from my immediate family (mom, dad, brothers, husband) I do not mind if people say "My guess was/is ____." But the "Oh there is no way you will got over due" or the constant change of guesses from people who was not in my comfort zone (which is VERY small) I just don't need their opinion.
Honestly if I could hibernate I would. I honestly would crawl in a hole and sleep b/c I get so tired of the comments. I mean I know no one means any harm but it is just so annoying to hear how big I am or how people feel so bad for me.
I AM FINE! I am carrying a healthy FULL TERM baby! I could not ask for more. If God planned my babies to be late then I'm good with that! I seriously do not want them to come a second sooner than God planned (obviously they can't) but I just praise the Lord for having THREE healthy pregnancies. I mean seriously I am blessed beyond my own understanding to carry my babies. I enjoy them SO much! Yes I have pain and discomfort...ask TJ I complain a lot. Ask my girls they have to sacrifice right now b/c mommy can't do as much.
I would take going overdue over having to pray my babies stay in till a certain point ANY DAY! God created my body to do this, I came into this world predestine to do this.
So please approach me with a POSTIVE attitude. Tell me how great I look (even if you have to lie!!), tell me how great I am doing, tell me I'm tough, tell me I am your hero, I don't care just pat me on the back and help me along.
I have said this a million times I would not be where I am with out my mom and TJ!!! I seriously could not be more thankful for them. They both listen to me complain but don't feel sorry for me b/c they know it is what it is and this baby will come when he is supposed to. They encourage me to keep on keepin on and I NEED that!
So there is my rant...
How am I truly feeling? I am VERY tired, I have had a lot of shooting pains from pressure, he is on a nerve that makes my right leg buckle everyonce in a while, I have burning like my skin is on fire right at my bikini line on my right leg, I have heartburn, I feel like my ribs are about to break, my hands and feet hurt like I have arthritis, I have to wake up and painfully roll over a couple times a night, and with all that said. I am loving his shifts and movements, how he pushes his feet out on my left side where I look like I have a ball coming out the side, I love my big belly b/c it is just fun!, and I love the thought of actually carrying one of Gods miracles, I love to feel tough like at the end of the day that I accomplished something in just getting through another day, and I love that I am fully capable of (almost) fully functioning when SO many have problems by this point.
I know women carry babies and give birth everyday but somehow I feel kinda like I'm super woman just for enduring it all. I love it!
I love being pregnant and am going to miss it but I also am ready to be back to somewhat normal and be able to lean over haha Life is good.
I admit I have been slightly depressed every passing day that I don't have him but then again life is going to get crazy so him staying in allows me time to prepare more. I just want the world to meet the little man and I want to see his face. I feel like I already know him but in reality I am going to meet him too. This is just so fun!
Vent over but I love documenting my thoughts b/c I have done so little of it this time.
Wednesday, June 4, 2014
38 WEEKS
Well here we are 38 weeks with my last baby and precious little boy. I seriously feel the last month has gone by faster than any other month. It has been insane!
How I feel...which I am asked many times daily...I feel 9 months pregnant but I really can't complain much. I have pain and sometimes lots of it, I'm tired, and over all uncomfortable. I have lots of cramps recently! Well if I sit still I feel great! haha But I seriously could have it SO much worse! I am also honestly loving this little guys crazy movements, lots of hiccups, and the belly is fun (except for when it gets in the way). Pregnancy is seriously such a miracle!
I am SO anxious to meet him and love him. I am anxious to have a sweet newborn lay on my chest and just be content. I can not wait to see the girls with their little brother and to create a new little life. It will be VERY challenging but fun!
So I had my 38 week appt today...I had never met this midwife and she was nice but kinda vague and not real warm. So the appt was very fast! She asked if I was using any supplements for labor and I said no...she suggested Gentle Birth but after looking it up it helps with advancing dilation, quicker labor, and quicker recovery. It is not worth buying for me. I will just see how things go on their own...I have loved my last 2 births so I am trusting this one will be good too.
She did check me and I am 1cm, 70% effaced, and baby is at station -2. His heartbeat was 130-140bpm and I am measuring 40 weeks...eek! I have never measured ahead in my other pregnancies but I have a few times in this one.
TJ's guess is June 11 (next Wednesday), mom's guess is June 18 (the next Wednesday) and my guess is June 16 (a week from Monday)
Guess we will see when God has this little one planned!!
How I feel...which I am asked many times daily...I feel 9 months pregnant but I really can't complain much. I have pain and sometimes lots of it, I'm tired, and over all uncomfortable. I have lots of cramps recently! Well if I sit still I feel great! haha But I seriously could have it SO much worse! I am also honestly loving this little guys crazy movements, lots of hiccups, and the belly is fun (except for when it gets in the way). Pregnancy is seriously such a miracle!
I am SO anxious to meet him and love him. I am anxious to have a sweet newborn lay on my chest and just be content. I can not wait to see the girls with their little brother and to create a new little life. It will be VERY challenging but fun!
So I had my 38 week appt today...I had never met this midwife and she was nice but kinda vague and not real warm. So the appt was very fast! She asked if I was using any supplements for labor and I said no...she suggested Gentle Birth but after looking it up it helps with advancing dilation, quicker labor, and quicker recovery. It is not worth buying for me. I will just see how things go on their own...I have loved my last 2 births so I am trusting this one will be good too.
She did check me and I am 1cm, 70% effaced, and baby is at station -2. His heartbeat was 130-140bpm and I am measuring 40 weeks...eek! I have never measured ahead in my other pregnancies but I have a few times in this one.
TJ's guess is June 11 (next Wednesday), mom's guess is June 18 (the next Wednesday) and my guess is June 16 (a week from Monday)
Guess we will see when God has this little one planned!!
Sunday, May 18, 2014
Today...
Tommi has been trying to learn to pump on the swing but when we are around she seems to give up easily and want us to push her. Well today she wanted to go swing before church but we had to get ready so we told her she could go out by herself and swing but we couldn't go out. So we just kept the front door open and came out and talked to her while we got ready. She sat on the swing for a bit and you could tell she was bored so I came out on the porch to talk to her and she asked me to push her I said no I was not coming down there. I told her she came do it she just needs to try. Well low and behold with in a minute she was swinging by herself! It was SO awesome! She was so proud of herself as we are! She was just not giving herself enough credit! Yay for success but good gracious when did my baby grow up!?!
Also at church Miley was sitting on my lap touching my belly so I said "Who is in my belly?" She said "Baby Hugo, MY baby Hugo. Come out." (she pronounces it Hug-O haha too cute) It was so sweet! I'm hoping she is warming up to the idea and thankful she is at least some what ok with it even though she has NO idea what is about to happen to her little world. She is such a momma's girl so I'm hoping she tolerates him pretty well.
I will be 36 weeks tomorrow! How crazy!
Also at church Miley was sitting on my lap touching my belly so I said "Who is in my belly?" She said "Baby Hugo, MY baby Hugo. Come out." (she pronounces it Hug-O haha too cute) It was so sweet! I'm hoping she is warming up to the idea and thankful she is at least some what ok with it even though she has NO idea what is about to happen to her little world. She is such a momma's girl so I'm hoping she tolerates him pretty well.
I will be 36 weeks tomorrow! How crazy!
Friday, May 16, 2014
Emotional
Holy moses am I crazy emotional!!! I seriously have cried about EVERYTHING!
I was cleaning the bathroom today and around my tub their are a lot of nooks and crannies (reason #1 I hate big bathtubs!) Well I could not get in a certain section and started crying b/c it bothered me so bad that I couldn't get it clean...note..I never have been able to so why this bugged me now I have no idea.
I usually am one who can get my feelings hurt relatively easy but right now it is times 10! It is frustrating how bad it is, I do not remember my emotions this out of wack with the girls. But here we are and things could be ALOT worse.
I am also dealing with some crazy pain...I feel like I have been riding a horse for a week non stop. My inner thighs and pubic bone are SO sore! It gets better with rest and does not hurt all the time but mainly when I am in bed and when I have been on my feet too much. Rolling over in bed is tough but then also hurts so bad I get teary eyed everytime I roll over...so like 3 to 4 times a night on a good night. I did ask my midwife about it and she said it was pretty normal and is due to my pelvis being looser this time...yay!
Again I can't complain too much b/c I do not have it as bad as some. Plus I kinda have no choice but to keep on chugging along. Almost nightly baths helps a lot!
I also have gained quite a bit of weight with this little guy...eek! I hit the 30 pound mark this week and I still have 5 weeks to go...oops! My midwife has not said anything but I know my body is NOT happy!
But oh boy am I enjoying this little man and how crazy active he is! I am crazy in love with him and his silly self. I can not rest my hands/arms/anything on my belly with out him going crazy to kick it off! Tommi thinks it is hilarious and loves to lay on him to get him annoyed! She also loves his hiccups but the kicks and big movements are her favorite. Mine too!
I had an ultrasound and centering last night. The u/s was so sweet! He was cuddled up to my placenta and did not want to come off so we could get some really good pictures of his face...we did see him pretty well though. He is head down and ready to rumble! Fluid is good. He also was showing off his boy parts once again :) He punched the wand a couple times! So the ultrasound was over all great. I wish I had asked about his size but that is always a guess so it is no big deal. The tech did worry me when she was trying hard to get him off his placenta b/c she seemed to want to see his face better for a reason but I'm hoping that was just my worrying self reading into things.
Centering was good...nothing exciting.
I was supposed to start weekly appointments next week but when I called today the only appointment they could get was Monday at 1pm and I thought that was silly b/c it is less than a week since my last appt and the next is almost 2 weeks later. So I asked if they minded if I just waited till I go back to centering on the 29th and they said that was fine esp since this is my 3rd so I kinda know what is up. But then I did set up weeklys for week 38 and week 40 (39 weeks is centering) I am hoping I do not make it to my 40 week one which is the Thursday after I'm due. I'm praying for a due date baby or a couple days early. Crazy to think I only have 3 more appointments till my due date! eek! So exciting yet nerve racking.
My MIL, SIL, and Aunt in law decided they wanted to do a shower for me since I am having a boy this time....I'm excited. I basically just need/want some more clothes, diapers (i'm not doing cloth until we are in a routine), double stroller, and odds and ends boy stuff. So due to crazy schedules of everyone involved the shower is not until June 5th. So I will be 38 weeks.
My Thursday nights for the next 4 weeks are booked haha Tommi's preschool graduation, then centering, then my shower, and then another centering haha Thursdays are good days!
I really want to meet this guy but then again want time to slow down b/c I want to enjoy this time but I am ready for June when the only plans I have are drs appts and shower. No more school for Tommi and no weekend plans except chillin with my little family which I am hoping we can find some adventures to get into so we can celebrate these girls some more.
I'm not as able to do as much and with the warm weather I feel like such a downer for the girls but the cuddle time has been AMAZING!!! I am really sad thinking about having to share the attention even more soon but it will work out and I'm going to balance it. I just want my girls to know how much they are loved by momma b/c I know others will take over and help with them in the beginning but there is NO ONE like momma and I want them to know this little guy is NOT going to replace them and he will fall into our family well b/c God put him here and will take care of us. I am much more worried about Miley b/c I know Tommi understands...mostly.
But like when I had Miley, things will fall into place!
If I'm right on my guess which actually I have been one day off with both my girls. I guessed the 11th for Tommi and 18th for Miley. Then it will be exactly a month!
Praying for good labor and perfect baby!
My wish for Tommi was to have her daddys blue eyes, with Miley I wanted a dark little one, and this time I am dreaming of a bald blue eyed boy. So since I have gotten my wish the last 2 times hopefully I will this time too! I will be shocked to see if he has hair b/c I just can't see it for some reason.
I was cleaning the bathroom today and around my tub their are a lot of nooks and crannies (reason #1 I hate big bathtubs!) Well I could not get in a certain section and started crying b/c it bothered me so bad that I couldn't get it clean...note..I never have been able to so why this bugged me now I have no idea.
I usually am one who can get my feelings hurt relatively easy but right now it is times 10! It is frustrating how bad it is, I do not remember my emotions this out of wack with the girls. But here we are and things could be ALOT worse.
I am also dealing with some crazy pain...I feel like I have been riding a horse for a week non stop. My inner thighs and pubic bone are SO sore! It gets better with rest and does not hurt all the time but mainly when I am in bed and when I have been on my feet too much. Rolling over in bed is tough but then also hurts so bad I get teary eyed everytime I roll over...so like 3 to 4 times a night on a good night. I did ask my midwife about it and she said it was pretty normal and is due to my pelvis being looser this time...yay!
Again I can't complain too much b/c I do not have it as bad as some. Plus I kinda have no choice but to keep on chugging along. Almost nightly baths helps a lot!
I also have gained quite a bit of weight with this little guy...eek! I hit the 30 pound mark this week and I still have 5 weeks to go...oops! My midwife has not said anything but I know my body is NOT happy!
But oh boy am I enjoying this little man and how crazy active he is! I am crazy in love with him and his silly self. I can not rest my hands/arms/anything on my belly with out him going crazy to kick it off! Tommi thinks it is hilarious and loves to lay on him to get him annoyed! She also loves his hiccups but the kicks and big movements are her favorite. Mine too!
I had an ultrasound and centering last night. The u/s was so sweet! He was cuddled up to my placenta and did not want to come off so we could get some really good pictures of his face...we did see him pretty well though. He is head down and ready to rumble! Fluid is good. He also was showing off his boy parts once again :) He punched the wand a couple times! So the ultrasound was over all great. I wish I had asked about his size but that is always a guess so it is no big deal. The tech did worry me when she was trying hard to get him off his placenta b/c she seemed to want to see his face better for a reason but I'm hoping that was just my worrying self reading into things.
Centering was good...nothing exciting.
I was supposed to start weekly appointments next week but when I called today the only appointment they could get was Monday at 1pm and I thought that was silly b/c it is less than a week since my last appt and the next is almost 2 weeks later. So I asked if they minded if I just waited till I go back to centering on the 29th and they said that was fine esp since this is my 3rd so I kinda know what is up. But then I did set up weeklys for week 38 and week 40 (39 weeks is centering) I am hoping I do not make it to my 40 week one which is the Thursday after I'm due. I'm praying for a due date baby or a couple days early. Crazy to think I only have 3 more appointments till my due date! eek! So exciting yet nerve racking.
My MIL, SIL, and Aunt in law decided they wanted to do a shower for me since I am having a boy this time....I'm excited. I basically just need/want some more clothes, diapers (i'm not doing cloth until we are in a routine), double stroller, and odds and ends boy stuff. So due to crazy schedules of everyone involved the shower is not until June 5th. So I will be 38 weeks.
My Thursday nights for the next 4 weeks are booked haha Tommi's preschool graduation, then centering, then my shower, and then another centering haha Thursdays are good days!
I really want to meet this guy but then again want time to slow down b/c I want to enjoy this time but I am ready for June when the only plans I have are drs appts and shower. No more school for Tommi and no weekend plans except chillin with my little family which I am hoping we can find some adventures to get into so we can celebrate these girls some more.
I'm not as able to do as much and with the warm weather I feel like such a downer for the girls but the cuddle time has been AMAZING!!! I am really sad thinking about having to share the attention even more soon but it will work out and I'm going to balance it. I just want my girls to know how much they are loved by momma b/c I know others will take over and help with them in the beginning but there is NO ONE like momma and I want them to know this little guy is NOT going to replace them and he will fall into our family well b/c God put him here and will take care of us. I am much more worried about Miley b/c I know Tommi understands...mostly.
But like when I had Miley, things will fall into place!
If I'm right on my guess which actually I have been one day off with both my girls. I guessed the 11th for Tommi and 18th for Miley. Then it will be exactly a month!
Praying for good labor and perfect baby!
My wish for Tommi was to have her daddys blue eyes, with Miley I wanted a dark little one, and this time I am dreaming of a bald blue eyed boy. So since I have gotten my wish the last 2 times hopefully I will this time too! I will be shocked to see if he has hair b/c I just can't see it for some reason.
Tuesday, May 6, 2014
School field trip...
Today Tommi had a field trip to an elementary school, it is not the one she will go to but most of her preschool will go there.
I went along and she was SO excited to go! They first talked with the principal in the cafeteria then they went on a bus ride around the neighborhood, then went outside and got to play on the playground. They got to walk through a 5th grade classroom, watch a PE class, and visit with a kindergarten teacher. They went to the big kid bathrooms by themselves (though Tommi's super pregnant mommy had to pee too so Tommi didn't get to go alone haha) then they went to the cafeteria and went through the line and got their own tray all by themselves. After lunch they went to the library and read books with the librarian. That was it for the day but they all did so well!
So Tommi did really well she talked a lot and answered every question but that just reminded me she is definitely mine!
The only down fall of the day was the cafeteria....all went well, she went in and got her tray with her food with no help and I didn't even instruct her before hand how to do it she just followed the lead of the others and got her tray and came out and sat at the table she was supposed to sit at. She got pizza, chocolate milk, they put green beans, cooked carrots, and a fruit blend on her tray. So when she sat down I could see in her face she was on edge b/c she didn't want anything but the pizza and milk. She held it together and ate some and talked a lot. Then came time for clean up...the cafeteria lady came around and collected their silverware then walked around with a trash can and they were supposed to throw their napkin and milk carton in the trash can then take their tray up with any left over food to the window. Well as the lady came around I saw the fire blare in Tommi's eyes b/c she was not done with her milk and she was not giving it up, so she just ignored the lady and kept drinking. The lady was kinda a hard nosed one but she told Tommi she had to throw it away time was up. I had to step in and tell her she had no choice b/c time was up and the whole class and teachers were waiting on her. The tears broke free at that moment and she lost it. She did throw her milk away but then told me to take her tray up but I told her she had to. Through the tears she grabbed it and took it up. I had to walk away as she was going up b/c seeing her cry broke my heart and I knew the feelings she was having. I wanted to scoop her up and save the day but I couldn't! She has to be a big girl. But it just reminded me I need to time her lunch and get her used to that. She will pack and I think the actually day it comes around she will be ok but I hated it! Of course it was all that more embarrassing b/c my emotional self cried but I didn't let Tommi see that!
So her favorite part of the day was the playground and of course least favorite was lunch.
She is now telling me she doesn't want to go to kindergarten and wants to stay home with me but I am just hoping and praying it is nerves. I know she is ready but can't help but feel like I just want to keep my baby home and away from the troubles of the world.
But we lived and we did well!
I went along and she was SO excited to go! They first talked with the principal in the cafeteria then they went on a bus ride around the neighborhood, then went outside and got to play on the playground. They got to walk through a 5th grade classroom, watch a PE class, and visit with a kindergarten teacher. They went to the big kid bathrooms by themselves (though Tommi's super pregnant mommy had to pee too so Tommi didn't get to go alone haha) then they went to the cafeteria and went through the line and got their own tray all by themselves. After lunch they went to the library and read books with the librarian. That was it for the day but they all did so well!
So Tommi did really well she talked a lot and answered every question but that just reminded me she is definitely mine!
The only down fall of the day was the cafeteria....all went well, she went in and got her tray with her food with no help and I didn't even instruct her before hand how to do it she just followed the lead of the others and got her tray and came out and sat at the table she was supposed to sit at. She got pizza, chocolate milk, they put green beans, cooked carrots, and a fruit blend on her tray. So when she sat down I could see in her face she was on edge b/c she didn't want anything but the pizza and milk. She held it together and ate some and talked a lot. Then came time for clean up...the cafeteria lady came around and collected their silverware then walked around with a trash can and they were supposed to throw their napkin and milk carton in the trash can then take their tray up with any left over food to the window. Well as the lady came around I saw the fire blare in Tommi's eyes b/c she was not done with her milk and she was not giving it up, so she just ignored the lady and kept drinking. The lady was kinda a hard nosed one but she told Tommi she had to throw it away time was up. I had to step in and tell her she had no choice b/c time was up and the whole class and teachers were waiting on her. The tears broke free at that moment and she lost it. She did throw her milk away but then told me to take her tray up but I told her she had to. Through the tears she grabbed it and took it up. I had to walk away as she was going up b/c seeing her cry broke my heart and I knew the feelings she was having. I wanted to scoop her up and save the day but I couldn't! She has to be a big girl. But it just reminded me I need to time her lunch and get her used to that. She will pack and I think the actually day it comes around she will be ok but I hated it! Of course it was all that more embarrassing b/c my emotional self cried but I didn't let Tommi see that!
So her favorite part of the day was the playground and of course least favorite was lunch.
She is now telling me she doesn't want to go to kindergarten and wants to stay home with me but I am just hoping and praying it is nerves. I know she is ready but can't help but feel like I just want to keep my baby home and away from the troubles of the world.
But we lived and we did well!
Friday, May 2, 2014
5 year old
A little late but Tommi's 5 year old birthday questions...
20 Questions...answered by Tommi on 5/3/2014
1. What is your favorite color? PINK AND PURPLE
2. What is your favorite toy? DOLL/DOLLHOUSE
3. What is your favorite fruit? STRAWBERRIES
4. What is your favorite tv show? SHERIFF CALLIE, PEPPA PIG, AND BARBIE
5. What is your favorite thing to eat for lunch? TURKEY AND CHEESE / PB&HONEY
6. What is your favorite outfit? WHITE AND NAVY MAXI DRESS
7. What is your favorite game? CANDY LAND
8. What is your favorite snack? CHEEZ-ITS
9. What is your favorite animal? ZEBRA
10. What is your favorite song? B-I-B-L-E
11. What is your favorite book? CINDERELLA WEDDING BOOK
12. Who is your best friend? TITUS
13. What is your favorite cereal? LUCKY CHARMS
14. What is your favorite thing to do outside? SWING
15. What is your favorite drink? SPRITE
16. What is your favorite holiday? HALLOWEEN
17. What do you like to take to bed with you at night? HUGO
18. What is your favorite thing to eat for breakfast? NUTELLA CRACKERS
19. What do you want for dinner on your birthday? SUBWAY OR MCALLISTERS
20. What do you want to be when you grow up? A CHEERLEADER OR BE A DOCTOR
20 Questions...answered by Tommi on 5/3/2014
1. What is your favorite color? PINK AND PURPLE
2. What is your favorite toy? DOLL/DOLLHOUSE
3. What is your favorite fruit? STRAWBERRIES
4. What is your favorite tv show? SHERIFF CALLIE, PEPPA PIG, AND BARBIE
5. What is your favorite thing to eat for lunch? TURKEY AND CHEESE / PB&HONEY
6. What is your favorite outfit? WHITE AND NAVY MAXI DRESS
7. What is your favorite game? CANDY LAND
8. What is your favorite snack? CHEEZ-ITS
9. What is your favorite animal? ZEBRA
10. What is your favorite song? B-I-B-L-E
11. What is your favorite book? CINDERELLA WEDDING BOOK
12. Who is your best friend? TITUS
13. What is your favorite cereal? LUCKY CHARMS
14. What is your favorite thing to do outside? SWING
15. What is your favorite drink? SPRITE
16. What is your favorite holiday? HALLOWEEN
17. What do you like to take to bed with you at night? HUGO
18. What is your favorite thing to eat for breakfast? NUTELLA CRACKERS
19. What do you want for dinner on your birthday? SUBWAY OR MCALLISTERS
20. What do you want to be when you grow up? A CHEERLEADER OR BE A DOCTOR
Anxious
The last couple days I have all the sudden found myself really anxious to meet this little boy! Of course I have felt like that off and on the whole time but I feel like I'm ready to see his face and love him.
BUT...and I mean a HUGE BUT....I am not done being pregnant so I am not that ready. If he was born now it would not be good b/c his lungs are not ready.
I have been saying the whole time that I want to go to 40 weeks but I think I'm kinda coming to terms that if he comes a week early I would be ok too. But with my history 40 weeks is a good guess.
If I were to pick his b-day I would want it on my mom's birthday (June 8) so that would be a day shy of 39 weeks. I know it would be the coolest birthday present she ever got...well she did get a new daughter in law in 2012 but a grandson might top that one haha even though Katie is pretty awesome!
I DO NOT want him born on the 15th. I'm gonna be selfish and admit I want to keep my anniversary separate from his birthday. Though it is Father's Day so that would be cool for TJ but I still would like to keep the 2 separate even if it is only by a day.
My best guess is he will be born on his due date b/c that is how both my girls were....well they were born on the day that the first u/s set their due date at. The dr always went by my LMP for my due date with them but this time they couldn't do that so they set it based on measurement. So It would actually be awesome to have all my kids born on the date their first u/s said.
So for fun if I had my way with the birth...I would put the girls down to bed then he would be born in the middle of the night...for many reasons this would be best for me...
-I would get to put my girls to bed
-TJ would be home so no need to call him
-I would get my bonding/nursing/chill time with him before anyone came to visit
-My girls could be well rested to meet their brother
But that would not be best for some reasons too...
-Miley does not wake up well to any one but me (I think she would do ok with my mom but she wouldnt' be here)
-That would mean TJ's parents would have to come stay at our house when we left and I would hate that for them b/c they wouldn't sleep...well his dad would but I doubt his mom would
-My mom would not get to meet baby till mid morning b/c she left middle of the night with Miley and lost good sleep...though would she really be able to sleep if I told her I was in labor haha maybe if that happens I will just have to send a text so she will get it when she gets up so I do not disturb the sleep she needs.
So second best...I would put the girls down for nap and leave while they are sleeping and have him around dinnertime so they could get up from nap, grab some dinner and then come visit which would give me time to bond and get ready to see the girls. Also that could work for my mom b/c she could pull that one off. Plus then I would HOPEFULLY spend that night in the hospital and then get out the next evening. So that would put less on others putting my kids down for bed and less stress on Miley having to go to bed for someone else.
Of course my thoughts are all envisioning me having a very quick labor like I did with Miley.
I DO NOT DO NOT DO NOT want people waiting in the waiting room like they did with Tommi b/c they came to meet Tommi before I was really ready. I want to give birth and nurse with in the first hour like I did with Miley and just calm down from the whirlwind before having visitors. Even my girls...I know I will be SO ready for them to meet him but I want that time with him.
My vision of them meeting him would be having him and TJ calling my mom and his parents when he is born and ready for visitors. Then he can go out and meet them in the waiting room and have the girls come in with just him and have baby boy in the crib thing so I can love on them first. Then they can put on their shirts and meet their brother! Then TJ can go get everyone else and they can all come and the girls can introduce their brother. I just really want them to feel like the total center of attention even if their brother really is haha Tommi is just going to bed SO proud. Miley will just like all the people loving on her and also by the point she meets him she will be glad to see me I'm sure. Well unless she has been spending time partying with Big Mama then she will not be as worried about me.
But the best plan of all is God's plan....last time the only thing I would have done differently would be Tommi would not have been sick! But otherwise the labor and birth was perfect. And with Tommi's birth I would have had people wait a bit longer before coming in to meet her b/c I was still in shock so I needed more time. But otherwise labor and delivery was exactly what was best for my first baby.
So 6 weeks to go sounds good...I'm just so excited to meet him and tell everyone his name b/c that has been hard to keep this time! But thankfully for the first time no one actually knows my babys name in advance! This one will be a real surprise....which is so fun! Ok so let's hope I can say that in 6 weeks!
I have got to slow down and enjoy this time with my froggy boy...he is jumping like a frog right now haha B/c I am going to miss this SO much!
I am REALLY looking forward to my next appt in 2 weeks b/c I will have an ultrasound and I am excited to see if we can see some sweet cheeks! They are really doing it as a position check but I am hoping the tech lets us see him a bit.
Holy crap I am going to be a mom of THREE next month!!! So crazy!!!!!
BUT...and I mean a HUGE BUT....I am not done being pregnant so I am not that ready. If he was born now it would not be good b/c his lungs are not ready.
I have been saying the whole time that I want to go to 40 weeks but I think I'm kinda coming to terms that if he comes a week early I would be ok too. But with my history 40 weeks is a good guess.
If I were to pick his b-day I would want it on my mom's birthday (June 8) so that would be a day shy of 39 weeks. I know it would be the coolest birthday present she ever got...well she did get a new daughter in law in 2012 but a grandson might top that one haha even though Katie is pretty awesome!
I DO NOT want him born on the 15th. I'm gonna be selfish and admit I want to keep my anniversary separate from his birthday. Though it is Father's Day so that would be cool for TJ but I still would like to keep the 2 separate even if it is only by a day.
My best guess is he will be born on his due date b/c that is how both my girls were....well they were born on the day that the first u/s set their due date at. The dr always went by my LMP for my due date with them but this time they couldn't do that so they set it based on measurement. So It would actually be awesome to have all my kids born on the date their first u/s said.
So for fun if I had my way with the birth...I would put the girls down to bed then he would be born in the middle of the night...for many reasons this would be best for me...
-I would get to put my girls to bed
-TJ would be home so no need to call him
-I would get my bonding/nursing/chill time with him before anyone came to visit
-My girls could be well rested to meet their brother
But that would not be best for some reasons too...
-Miley does not wake up well to any one but me (I think she would do ok with my mom but she wouldnt' be here)
-That would mean TJ's parents would have to come stay at our house when we left and I would hate that for them b/c they wouldn't sleep...well his dad would but I doubt his mom would
-My mom would not get to meet baby till mid morning b/c she left middle of the night with Miley and lost good sleep...though would she really be able to sleep if I told her I was in labor haha maybe if that happens I will just have to send a text so she will get it when she gets up so I do not disturb the sleep she needs.
So second best...I would put the girls down for nap and leave while they are sleeping and have him around dinnertime so they could get up from nap, grab some dinner and then come visit which would give me time to bond and get ready to see the girls. Also that could work for my mom b/c she could pull that one off. Plus then I would HOPEFULLY spend that night in the hospital and then get out the next evening. So that would put less on others putting my kids down for bed and less stress on Miley having to go to bed for someone else.
Of course my thoughts are all envisioning me having a very quick labor like I did with Miley.
I DO NOT DO NOT DO NOT want people waiting in the waiting room like they did with Tommi b/c they came to meet Tommi before I was really ready. I want to give birth and nurse with in the first hour like I did with Miley and just calm down from the whirlwind before having visitors. Even my girls...I know I will be SO ready for them to meet him but I want that time with him.
My vision of them meeting him would be having him and TJ calling my mom and his parents when he is born and ready for visitors. Then he can go out and meet them in the waiting room and have the girls come in with just him and have baby boy in the crib thing so I can love on them first. Then they can put on their shirts and meet their brother! Then TJ can go get everyone else and they can all come and the girls can introduce their brother. I just really want them to feel like the total center of attention even if their brother really is haha Tommi is just going to bed SO proud. Miley will just like all the people loving on her and also by the point she meets him she will be glad to see me I'm sure. Well unless she has been spending time partying with Big Mama then she will not be as worried about me.
But the best plan of all is God's plan....last time the only thing I would have done differently would be Tommi would not have been sick! But otherwise the labor and birth was perfect. And with Tommi's birth I would have had people wait a bit longer before coming in to meet her b/c I was still in shock so I needed more time. But otherwise labor and delivery was exactly what was best for my first baby.
So 6 weeks to go sounds good...I'm just so excited to meet him and tell everyone his name b/c that has been hard to keep this time! But thankfully for the first time no one actually knows my babys name in advance! This one will be a real surprise....which is so fun! Ok so let's hope I can say that in 6 weeks!
I have got to slow down and enjoy this time with my froggy boy...he is jumping like a frog right now haha B/c I am going to miss this SO much!
I am REALLY looking forward to my next appt in 2 weeks b/c I will have an ultrasound and I am excited to see if we can see some sweet cheeks! They are really doing it as a position check but I am hoping the tech lets us see him a bit.
Holy crap I am going to be a mom of THREE next month!!! So crazy!!!!!
Tuesday, April 8, 2014
Little family...ramble
This evening we went to the ball field so TJ could hit and the girls could play. It was an adventure to say the least...but not so bad. Other than Miley falling in mud! But thankfully it was Miley b/c Tommi would have freaked. Miley fussed until she saw TJ had a towel to clean off her muddy arm then she was fine...muddy but fine.
Anyway...after 3 or 4 trips to the outfield with the girls so they could help collect balls with the guys I decided I wasn't going to keep walking out there. If the girls wanted to go they could but I was parking my fat butt on the bench.
Well as the girls chased TJ yelling "Daddy wait for us!" or Miley's version "Daddy stop...please! I coming!" then he stopped and waited and Miley's sweet voice saying "Thank you daddy...hold hand please" I couldn't help but just smile watching them in their little slice of heaven hanging out with their daddy and running free like a child should! I know how blessed I am but sometimes it just takes my breath away. I am a bit bias but I seriously have the 2 best girls around! (I even say this after a tough afternoon with Tommi and her wanna be 15 year old attitude) They love with all they have and forgive and forget how we all should. Miley could have pouted (like I would have) about her crazy messy leggings and being a bit chilly b/c they were wet but no she ran out to do it all again just to be with her daddy. Tommi could have kept a chip on her shoulder b/c she got in trouble at dinner for being a poop head, no she forgot and moved on.
At one point TJ said "I love you Tommi." she smiled and said "I love you too daddy" and one of the guys said "That won't last forever...she will not always feel that way" or something along those lines and I couldn't help but think...yes she will! She will ALWAYS love her daddy! She may not always like him but she will always love him! He may make her mad, frustrate her, etc but she will always think he is superman! After 28 years my daddy is still my hero and always will be. He has loved me so deep that he has made me mad and frustrated me but think of all the pain and frustration I have put him through and he loves me more than I understand. Even as a mother I know I will love my girls till my last breath and beyond but that love still amazes me. Love that deep can only be felt, never explained.
I just am taken back that they are really my kids! I mean I know I gave birth to them and have raised them for almost every second of their life but I still sometimes can't help but feel like I'm watching someone elses life, a life I dream of having. Not perfect but perfect all in the same breath.
Time goes by so fast and sometimes I just need to stop and catch up to it b/c I do not want to miss a thing. Pregnancy has brought on some really bad attitude days for me. I almost wake up counting the minutes till bedtime but I need to stop and remember these girls don't deserve my bad mood. They need their mommy to love them and be patient with them. Plus they are watching me and feeding off me. I need to be positive and enjoy life as they do!
Don't get my wrong I KNOW I am blessed but human nature and stupid hormones mess me up sometimes! I just thank God for blessing me with this life b/c I don't deserve even a fraction of what I am given!
Another thing that is really cool is to watch the young guys TJ plays ball with and watch them look at him with his family and desire that. He is a good example to them and I love that he can be. No he is not able to go hang out with the guys as much as them and has to always "ask his old lady" before doing things. But he has SO much more. Being a single guy who can do as he pleases will only get you so far but that love of a family and somewhere to "belong" when everything else is gone.
In true Laura fashion I get overly emotional and ramble but I am just amazed at my own life.
As my son tries to bust his way out of my belly via my belly button I can't help but just smile b/c being pregnant is such a miracle!!!
Anyway...after 3 or 4 trips to the outfield with the girls so they could help collect balls with the guys I decided I wasn't going to keep walking out there. If the girls wanted to go they could but I was parking my fat butt on the bench.
Well as the girls chased TJ yelling "Daddy wait for us!" or Miley's version "Daddy stop...please! I coming!" then he stopped and waited and Miley's sweet voice saying "Thank you daddy...hold hand please" I couldn't help but just smile watching them in their little slice of heaven hanging out with their daddy and running free like a child should! I know how blessed I am but sometimes it just takes my breath away. I am a bit bias but I seriously have the 2 best girls around! (I even say this after a tough afternoon with Tommi and her wanna be 15 year old attitude) They love with all they have and forgive and forget how we all should. Miley could have pouted (like I would have) about her crazy messy leggings and being a bit chilly b/c they were wet but no she ran out to do it all again just to be with her daddy. Tommi could have kept a chip on her shoulder b/c she got in trouble at dinner for being a poop head, no she forgot and moved on.
At one point TJ said "I love you Tommi." she smiled and said "I love you too daddy" and one of the guys said "That won't last forever...she will not always feel that way" or something along those lines and I couldn't help but think...yes she will! She will ALWAYS love her daddy! She may not always like him but she will always love him! He may make her mad, frustrate her, etc but she will always think he is superman! After 28 years my daddy is still my hero and always will be. He has loved me so deep that he has made me mad and frustrated me but think of all the pain and frustration I have put him through and he loves me more than I understand. Even as a mother I know I will love my girls till my last breath and beyond but that love still amazes me. Love that deep can only be felt, never explained.
I just am taken back that they are really my kids! I mean I know I gave birth to them and have raised them for almost every second of their life but I still sometimes can't help but feel like I'm watching someone elses life, a life I dream of having. Not perfect but perfect all in the same breath.
Time goes by so fast and sometimes I just need to stop and catch up to it b/c I do not want to miss a thing. Pregnancy has brought on some really bad attitude days for me. I almost wake up counting the minutes till bedtime but I need to stop and remember these girls don't deserve my bad mood. They need their mommy to love them and be patient with them. Plus they are watching me and feeding off me. I need to be positive and enjoy life as they do!
Don't get my wrong I KNOW I am blessed but human nature and stupid hormones mess me up sometimes! I just thank God for blessing me with this life b/c I don't deserve even a fraction of what I am given!
Another thing that is really cool is to watch the young guys TJ plays ball with and watch them look at him with his family and desire that. He is a good example to them and I love that he can be. No he is not able to go hang out with the guys as much as them and has to always "ask his old lady" before doing things. But he has SO much more. Being a single guy who can do as he pleases will only get you so far but that love of a family and somewhere to "belong" when everything else is gone.
In true Laura fashion I get overly emotional and ramble but I am just amazed at my own life.
As my son tries to bust his way out of my belly via my belly button I can't help but just smile b/c being pregnant is such a miracle!!!
Monday, April 7, 2014
Growing up
It is crazy at times how grown up Miley is getting...well both my girls but Miley has really grown up recently!
She is SOOO expressive when she talks and uses her hands all the time! It is adorable!
So the other night we had a church dinner and Miley wanted some of my drink. She was holding the cup and looked at me and said "What is it mommy?" Sounds so little but it made me laugh so hard b/c she seriously formed a full sentence and also the fact she thought through that. It was so cute. So I told her it was lemonade and she took a sip and said "I yike it mommy!" then when she handed it back she said "Thank you mommy for a sip of lemonade" WHAT?! She has always said thank you but just recently has started telling us what she is thanking us for. With her cute little voice everything she says is so adorable!
This morning I yawned and Miley said "Tired mommy?" as she shrugged her shoulders and I told her I was. She said "Go to bed momma!" Oh I wish I could but it is so not that easy my sweet girl!
I wish I could bottle her up! She is a pistol but good gracious does she have my heart!!!
She is SOOO expressive when she talks and uses her hands all the time! It is adorable!
So the other night we had a church dinner and Miley wanted some of my drink. She was holding the cup and looked at me and said "What is it mommy?" Sounds so little but it made me laugh so hard b/c she seriously formed a full sentence and also the fact she thought through that. It was so cute. So I told her it was lemonade and she took a sip and said "I yike it mommy!" then when she handed it back she said "Thank you mommy for a sip of lemonade" WHAT?! She has always said thank you but just recently has started telling us what she is thanking us for. With her cute little voice everything she says is so adorable!
This morning I yawned and Miley said "Tired mommy?" as she shrugged her shoulders and I told her I was. She said "Go to bed momma!" Oh I wish I could but it is so not that easy my sweet girl!
I wish I could bottle her up! She is a pistol but good gracious does she have my heart!!!
Thursday, March 27, 2014
My love bugs
I am always shocked to hear how Miley is really putting the world together now and can communicate more than I expect. It is silly things but it is awesome.
This morning I was going to the bathroom and she said "mommy wait for me!" A simple statement but not something I have taught her she just heard it and understood.
Then she shut the door behind me and I was asking her why she did it and she said "I don't know hand did it." so I told her to open it...knowing she is too small. She tried then turned to me looking defeated and said "Can't mommy, too little, sorry." with the most pitiful voice and face!
We were getting out of the van at Target and I was carrying her she tried to get down and said "Walk mommy, snow gone!" I kinda laughed but then realized this morning I told her she couldn't walk to the van b/c there was snow on the ground and I didn't want her slipping. So amazing!
Then in the pet store she was going around naming the colors and the animals and her little brain was just working up a storm. She even told me she didn't want certain puppies jumping on her b/c they would knock her over. She knew the little ones wouldn't but the bigger ones would!
It is a daily thing...if not hourly. I just can't get enough of her! She is amazing!
Tommi is also taking my breath away these days! She is SO into this having a little brother thing. She will love on "Hugo" many times during the day and talk to him. It is awesome. Yesterday he was moving a ton and I told her to come watch my belly move and she did then she put her hand on it and felt him kick a bunch. She was SO excited! Usually he stops when she has her hand there and she is too impatient to wait. So I was excited she got to feel him! She is just amazing!
I am just blessed all around with these girls and they are so different yet so much love comes from both of them! They are pickles but also the sweetest things around! I'm a blessed momma!
This morning I was going to the bathroom and she said "mommy wait for me!" A simple statement but not something I have taught her she just heard it and understood.
Then she shut the door behind me and I was asking her why she did it and she said "I don't know hand did it." so I told her to open it...knowing she is too small. She tried then turned to me looking defeated and said "Can't mommy, too little, sorry." with the most pitiful voice and face!
We were getting out of the van at Target and I was carrying her she tried to get down and said "Walk mommy, snow gone!" I kinda laughed but then realized this morning I told her she couldn't walk to the van b/c there was snow on the ground and I didn't want her slipping. So amazing!
Then in the pet store she was going around naming the colors and the animals and her little brain was just working up a storm. She even told me she didn't want certain puppies jumping on her b/c they would knock her over. She knew the little ones wouldn't but the bigger ones would!
It is a daily thing...if not hourly. I just can't get enough of her! She is amazing!
Tommi is also taking my breath away these days! She is SO into this having a little brother thing. She will love on "Hugo" many times during the day and talk to him. It is awesome. Yesterday he was moving a ton and I told her to come watch my belly move and she did then she put her hand on it and felt him kick a bunch. She was SO excited! Usually he stops when she has her hand there and she is too impatient to wait. So I was excited she got to feel him! She is just amazing!
I am just blessed all around with these girls and they are so different yet so much love comes from both of them! They are pickles but also the sweetest things around! I'm a blessed momma!
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