Sunday, May 18, 2014

Today...

Tommi has been trying to learn to pump on the swing but when we are around she seems to give up easily and want us to push her. Well today she wanted to go swing before church but we had to get ready so we told her she could go out  by herself and swing but we couldn't go out. So we just kept the front door open and came out and talked to her while we got ready. She sat on the swing for a bit and you could tell she was bored so I came out on the porch to talk to her and she asked me to push her I said no I was not coming down there. I told her she came do it she just needs to try. Well low and behold with in a minute she was swinging by herself! It was SO awesome! She was so proud of herself as we are! She was just not giving herself enough credit! Yay for success but good gracious when did my baby grow up!?!


Also at church Miley was sitting on my lap touching my belly so I said "Who is in my belly?" She said "Baby Hugo, MY baby Hugo. Come out." (she pronounces it Hug-O haha too cute) It was so sweet! I'm hoping she is warming up to the idea and thankful she is at least some what ok with it even though she has NO idea what is about to happen to her little world. She is such a momma's girl so I'm hoping she tolerates him pretty well.

I will be 36 weeks tomorrow! How crazy!

Friday, May 16, 2014

Emotional

Holy moses am I crazy emotional!!! I seriously have cried about EVERYTHING!

I was cleaning the bathroom today and around my tub their are a lot of nooks and crannies (reason #1 I hate big bathtubs!) Well I could not get in a certain section and started crying b/c it bothered me so bad that I couldn't get it clean...note..I never have been able to so why this bugged me now I have no idea.
I usually am one who can get my feelings hurt relatively easy but right now it is times 10! It is frustrating how bad it is, I do not remember my emotions this out of wack with the girls. But here we are and things could be ALOT worse.

I am also dealing with some crazy pain...I feel like I have been riding a horse for a week non stop. My inner thighs and pubic bone are SO sore! It gets better with rest and does not hurt all the time but mainly when I am in bed and when I have been on my feet too much. Rolling over in bed is tough but then also hurts so bad I get teary eyed everytime I roll over...so like 3 to 4 times a night on a good night. I did ask my midwife about it and she said it was pretty normal and is due to my pelvis being looser this time...yay!

Again I can't complain too much b/c I do not have it as bad as some. Plus I kinda have no choice but to keep on chugging along. Almost nightly baths helps a lot!

I also have gained quite a bit of weight with this little guy...eek! I hit the 30 pound mark this week and I still have 5 weeks to go...oops! My midwife has not said anything but I know my body is NOT happy!

But oh boy am I enjoying this little man and how crazy active he is! I am crazy in love with him and his silly self. I can not rest my hands/arms/anything on my belly with out him going crazy to kick it off! Tommi thinks it is hilarious and loves to lay on him to get him annoyed! She also loves his hiccups but the kicks and big movements are her favorite. Mine too!

I had an ultrasound and centering last night. The u/s was so sweet! He was cuddled up to my placenta and did not want to come off so we could get some really good pictures of his face...we did see him pretty well though. He is head down and ready to rumble! Fluid is good. He also was showing off his boy parts once again :) He punched the wand a couple times! So the ultrasound was over all great. I wish I had asked about his size but that is always a guess so it is no big deal. The tech did worry me when she was trying hard to get him off his placenta b/c she seemed to want to see his face better for a reason but I'm hoping that was just my worrying self reading into things.

Centering was good...nothing exciting.

I was supposed to start weekly appointments next week but when I called today the only appointment they could get was Monday at 1pm and I thought that was silly b/c it is less than a week since my last appt and the next is almost 2 weeks later. So I asked if they minded if I just waited till I go back to centering on the 29th and they said that was fine esp since this is my 3rd so I kinda know what is up. But then I did set up weeklys for week 38 and week 40 (39 weeks is centering) I am hoping I do not make it to my 40 week one which is the Thursday after I'm due. I'm praying for a due date baby or a couple days early.  Crazy to think I only have 3 more appointments till my due date! eek! So exciting yet nerve racking.

My MIL, SIL, and Aunt in law decided they wanted to do a shower for me since I am having a boy this time....I'm excited. I basically just need/want some more clothes, diapers (i'm not doing cloth until we are in a routine), double stroller, and odds and ends boy stuff. So due to crazy schedules of everyone involved the shower is not until June 5th. So I will be 38 weeks.

My Thursday nights for the next 4 weeks are booked haha Tommi's preschool graduation, then centering, then my shower, and then another centering haha Thursdays are good days!

I really want to meet this guy but then again want time to slow down b/c I want to enjoy this time but I am ready for June when the only plans I have are drs appts and shower. No more school for Tommi and no weekend plans except chillin with my little family which I am hoping we can find some adventures to get into so we can celebrate these girls some more.

I'm not as able to do as much and with the warm weather I feel like such a downer for the girls but the cuddle time has been AMAZING!!! I am really sad thinking about having to share the attention even more soon but it will work out and I'm going to balance it. I just want my girls to know how much they are loved by momma b/c I know others will take over and help with them in the beginning but there is NO ONE like momma and I want them to know this little guy is NOT going to replace them and he will fall into our family well b/c God put him here and will take care of us. I am much more worried about Miley b/c I know Tommi understands...mostly.

But like when I had Miley, things will fall into place!

If I'm right on my guess which actually I have been one day off with both my girls. I guessed the 11th for Tommi and 18th for Miley. Then it will be exactly a month!

Praying for good labor and perfect baby!

My wish for Tommi was to have her daddys blue eyes, with Miley I wanted a dark little one, and this time I am dreaming of a bald blue eyed boy. So since I have gotten my wish the last 2 times hopefully I will this time too! I will be shocked to see if he has hair b/c I just can't see it for some reason.

Tuesday, May 6, 2014

School field trip...

Today Tommi had a field trip to an elementary school, it is not the one she will go to but most of her preschool will go there.

I went along and she was SO excited to go! They first talked with the principal in the cafeteria then they went on a bus ride around the neighborhood, then went outside and got to play on the playground. They got to walk through a 5th grade classroom, watch a PE class, and visit with a kindergarten teacher. They went to the big kid bathrooms by themselves (though Tommi's super pregnant mommy had to pee too so Tommi didn't get to go alone haha) then they went to the cafeteria and went through the line and got their own tray all by themselves. After lunch they went to the library and read books with the librarian. That was it for the day but they all did so well!

So Tommi did really well she talked a lot and answered every question but that just reminded me she is definitely mine!

The only down fall of the day was the cafeteria....all went well, she went in and got her tray with her food with no help and I didn't even instruct her before hand how to do it she just followed the lead of the others and got her tray and came out and sat at the table she was supposed to sit at. She got pizza, chocolate milk, they put green beans, cooked carrots, and a fruit blend on her tray. So when she sat down I could see in her face she was on edge b/c she didn't want anything but the pizza and milk. She held it together and ate some and talked a lot. Then came time for clean up...the cafeteria lady came around and collected their silverware then walked around with a trash can and they were supposed to throw their napkin and milk carton in the trash can then take their tray up with any left over food to the window. Well as the lady came around I saw the fire blare in Tommi's eyes b/c she was not done with her milk and she was not giving it up, so she just ignored the lady and kept drinking. The lady was kinda a hard nosed one but she told Tommi she had to throw it away time was up. I had to step in and tell her she had no choice b/c time was up and the whole class and teachers were waiting on her. The tears broke free at that moment and she lost it. She did throw her milk away but then told me to take her tray up but I told her she had to. Through the tears she grabbed it and took it up. I had to walk away as she was going up b/c seeing her cry broke my heart and I knew the feelings she was having. I wanted to scoop her up and save the day but I couldn't! She has to be a big girl. But it just reminded me I need to time her lunch and get her used to that. She will pack and I think the actually day it comes around she will be ok but I hated it! Of course it was all that more embarrassing b/c my emotional self cried but I didn't let Tommi see that!

So her favorite part of the day was the playground and of course least favorite was lunch.

She is now telling me she doesn't want to go to kindergarten and wants to stay home with me but I am just hoping and praying it is nerves. I know she is ready but can't help but feel like I just want to keep my baby home and away from the troubles of the world.

But we lived and we did well!

Friday, May 2, 2014

5 year old

A little late but Tommi's 5 year old birthday questions...

20 Questions...answered by Tommi on 5/3/2014

1. What is your favorite color? PINK AND PURPLE
2. What is your favorite toy? DOLL/DOLLHOUSE
3. What is your favorite fruit? STRAWBERRIES
4. What is your favorite tv show? SHERIFF CALLIE, PEPPA PIG, AND BARBIE
5. What is your favorite thing to eat for lunch? TURKEY AND CHEESE / PB&HONEY
6. What is your favorite outfit? WHITE AND NAVY MAXI DRESS
7. What is your favorite game? CANDY LAND
8. What is your favorite snack? CHEEZ-ITS
9. What is your favorite animal? ZEBRA
10. What is your favorite song? B-I-B-L-E
11. What is your favorite book? CINDERELLA WEDDING BOOK
12. Who is your best friend? TITUS
13. What is your favorite cereal? LUCKY CHARMS
14. What is your favorite thing to do outside? SWING
15. What is your favorite drink? SPRITE
16. What is your favorite holiday? HALLOWEEN
17. What do you like to take to bed with you at night? HUGO
18. What is your favorite thing to eat for breakfast? NUTELLA CRACKERS
19. What do you want for dinner on your birthday? SUBWAY OR MCALLISTERS
20. What do you want to be when you grow up? A CHEERLEADER OR BE A DOCTOR

Anxious

The last couple days I have all the sudden found myself really anxious to meet this little boy! Of course I have felt like that off and on the whole time but I feel like I'm ready to see his face and love him.

BUT...and I mean a HUGE BUT....I am not done being pregnant so I am not that ready. If he was born now it would not be good b/c his lungs are not ready.

I have been saying the whole time that I want to go to 40 weeks but I think I'm kinda coming to terms that if he comes a week early I would be ok too. But with my history 40 weeks is a good guess.

If I were to pick his b-day I would want it on my mom's birthday (June 8) so that would be a day shy of 39 weeks. I know it would be the coolest birthday present she ever got...well she did get a new daughter in law in 2012 but a grandson might top that one haha even though Katie is pretty awesome!

I DO NOT want him born on the 15th. I'm gonna be selfish and admit I want to keep my anniversary separate from his birthday. Though it is Father's Day so that would be cool for TJ but I still would like to keep the 2 separate even if it is only by a day.

My best guess is he will be born on his due date b/c that is how both my girls were....well they were born on the day that the first u/s set their due date at. The dr always went by my LMP for my due date with them but this time they couldn't do that so they set it based on measurement. So It would actually be awesome to have all my kids born on the date their first u/s said.

So for fun if I had my way with the birth...I would put the girls down to bed then he would be born in the middle of the night...for many reasons this would be best for me...
-I would get to put my girls to bed
-TJ would be home so no need to call him
-I would get my bonding/nursing/chill time with him before anyone came to visit
-My girls could be well rested to meet their brother

But that would not be best for some reasons too...
-Miley does not wake up well to any one but me (I think she would do ok with my mom but she wouldnt' be here)
-That would mean TJ's parents would have to come stay at our house when we left and I would hate that for them b/c they wouldn't sleep...well his dad would but I doubt his mom would
-My mom would not get to meet baby till mid morning b/c she left middle of the night with Miley and lost good sleep...though would she really be able to sleep if I told her I was in labor haha maybe if that happens I will just have to send a text so she will get it when she gets up so I do not disturb the sleep she needs.

So second best...I would put the girls down for nap and leave while they are sleeping and have him around dinnertime so they could get up from nap, grab some dinner and then come visit which would give me time to bond and get ready to see the girls. Also that could work for my mom b/c she could pull that one off. Plus then I would HOPEFULLY spend that night in the hospital and then get out the next evening. So that would put less on others putting my kids down for bed and less stress on Miley having to go to bed for someone else.

Of course my thoughts are all envisioning me having a very quick labor like I did with Miley.

I DO NOT DO NOT DO NOT want people waiting in the waiting room like they did with Tommi b/c they came to meet Tommi before I was really ready. I want to give birth and nurse with in the first hour like I did with Miley and just calm down from the whirlwind before having visitors. Even my girls...I know I will be SO ready for them to meet him but I want that time with him.

My vision of them meeting him would be having him and TJ calling my mom and his parents when he is born and ready for visitors. Then he can go out and meet them in the waiting room and have the girls come in with just him and have baby boy in the crib thing so I can love on them first. Then they can put on their shirts and meet their brother! Then TJ can go get everyone else and they can all come and the girls can introduce their brother. I just really want them to feel like the total center of attention even if their brother really is haha Tommi is just going to bed SO proud. Miley will just like all the people loving on her and also by the point she meets him she will be glad to see me I'm sure. Well unless she has been spending time partying with Big Mama then she will not be as worried about me.
But the best plan of all is God's plan....last time the only thing I would have done differently would be Tommi would not have been sick! But otherwise the labor and birth was perfect. And with Tommi's birth I would have had people wait a bit longer before coming in to meet her b/c I was still in shock so I needed more time. But otherwise labor and delivery was exactly what was best for my first baby.

So 6 weeks to go sounds good...I'm just so excited to meet him and tell everyone his name b/c that has been hard to keep this time! But thankfully for the first time no one actually knows my babys name in advance! This one will be a real surprise....which is so fun! Ok so let's hope I can say that in 6 weeks!

I have got to slow down and enjoy this time with my froggy boy...he is jumping like a frog right now haha B/c I am going to miss this SO much!

I am REALLY looking forward to my next appt in 2 weeks b/c I will have an ultrasound and I am excited to see if we can see some sweet cheeks! They are really doing it as a position check but I am hoping the tech lets us see him a bit.

Holy crap I am going to be a mom of THREE next month!!! So crazy!!!!!