Night 1

She went to sleep about 9, was up at 1230 to nurse, then up at 4 to nurse, up at 530 to finish nursing, slept until 830. So things went better than expected.

She is battling something, teething or virus, b/c her nose is pretty runny and she is SUPER clingy and tired. 

I hate the feeling that she is not getting enough to eat (food) but I offer things and she denies them so I can't make her eat.

This too shall pass! 

Own room

So tonight is officially the night Miley goes to her own room. I can make no more excuses for keeping her in my room. The last 2 nights she has slept abnormally well only waking up twice during the night and going right back to sleep with nursing. So I was VERY hesitant to do this but I said I was going to so I am doing it. I hesitated even more b/c she did not nurse or eat well today so I'm concerned she isn't feeling well even though she is acting fine.

Usually our night routine is jammies then we go in my room and she nurses usually to sleep, sometimes she will nurse then go to sleep laying on my chest. But it is usually a fool proof method. It usually is a 15 to 30 min thing depending on how tired she was to start with. So usually goes down at 8ish so I am out by 830 to chill with Tommi before she goes to bed at 9. It is great.

Well tonight Miley got super sleepy at 730/745 so I got her all ready and we went into her room and sat in the rocking chair and she nursed. Well she didn't seem to nurse super well but finally kinda slowed down and went to sleep. Well I went to get up and put her in her bed and she woke up. I still laid her down and rubbed her back for a min. But she never went to sleep so I went out. Well only seconds later she was full on screaming. So I went back in picked her up calmed her and put her down, instant screaming. This happen a few times but she would never go to sleep when I would hold her and rock her. FINALLY I got her to sleep and put her down. But the whole ordeal lasted over an hour...not cool.

She has been down for an hour. I'm praying hard this goes better than expected.

I need her out of my room b/c I am tired of creeping in at night and just not having my own space. TJ and I need OUR room back. So I pray this goes well and I'm not back and forth from her room a million times. I don't wanna sleep in her room b/c I don't want her to hear me and get used to that.

So here we go...just pray...like really hard!

Also praying she doesn't wake Tommi up when she does wake up to nurse during the night.

Complaining...

I finally sat down for my daily chill sess with the big man, Jesus!

I have been slacking on our time together and it bothers me greatly b/c I do have the time. I just get so selfish sometimes and spend the quiet time around here playing on the computer or napping. I'm not happy with this b/c that stuff is so much less important.

So finally I'm getting back in my groove.

I open to read my devotional today and I think the Lord was trying to smack me in the face and remind me how silly I have been to leave him in the dust when I needed him most.

With the move, Mileys sleeping getting worse, and house stuff I have been super overwhelmed to the point I have had bad anxiety and even lost weight.

So a paraphrase of my devotions...

When things seem to be wrong...trust Me!
When life seems out of control...thank Me!
Doing this will lift you above the circumstances. If you do what comes naturally in the face of difficulties, you fall prey to negativism.  Even few complaints can set you in a downward spiral., by darkening your perspective and mind-set. With this attitude controlling you, complaints flow more and more readily from your mouth.  Each one moves you steadily down a slippery spiral. The lower you go, the faster you slide; but you can hit the brakes. Cry out to Me in My Name! Affirm your trust in me, regardless of how you feel. Thank me for everything! Gradually you will begin to ascend, recovering lost ground.
When you are back on level ground, you can face circumstances from a humble perspective.
By doing this you will experience unfathomable peace.

Wow, really?!?!

My problem is not complaining but dwelling on things and letting them take over. By letting them do this and not getting a grip and REALLY trusting God. I make things so much worse!

I WANT unfathomable peace...that just sounds awesome!

Blowing kisses

Miley has started blowing kisses! My heart could not melt any more when I see her little open mouth and chubby hand come together! It is SUPER sweet.

She also has gotten big into waving. She will be across the room and wave to me over and over. She also is more consistently waving and saying "buh-bye".

I love watching her come to life! Tommi is digging it too b/c she claims to have taught her everything she knows. I let her believe it b/c it is part of her important job as a big sis!

Tonight the girls took a bath and I have had Miley in a bath seat since she could sit up. So I tried her with out it since she is old enough to sit in the bath by herself. Well that little wiggle worm about gave me a heart attack climbing all over the tub and trying to stand up...back to the seat to keep her contained! She is too wild!

One year appt and sick sis

Today was Miley's one year appt...the plan was to leave Tommi with TJ's mom but she has had a stomach ache since Friday so I took her with me too.

So they checked Tommi out and due to a red yucky throat they did a strep swab...which upset her. The dr said she was not worried about the stomach ache b/c she sqeezed and pushed on her belly and it didn't hurt her. Well the strep test came back negative so she just has a virus. She said the stomach ache is part of that. So that is good b/c it is not serious and bad b/c we have to wait it out to go away.

Miley was next she weighed 16lbs 2ozes (5%) and 27 inches long (2%). The dr said she doesn't think the height measurement was right. She asked about her eating and I told her she was not a big eater. She made me feel like I was doing something wrong but Miley just isn't a big eater. Some days she eats great, other she only nurses. But I just can't read into it. Otherwise she is super healthy and growing great!

She had to get a finger prick which sucks, esp in the winter time b/c cold hands cause bad blood flow. So she had to work Miley's finger and it took a little bit which was not ok with Miley. But she lived.

Shots wise she was supposed to get 3 but I only did the one MMR and we will catch up later.

Year birthday

So one year ago today I gave birth to my second spunky little girl. This year has flown by SO fast...almost strangely fast.

Miley is such a little sunshine. She is full of giggles and silly noises. She is just plain fun to be around, she makes life super exciting.

She is learning so much so quickly. Honestly in the last month she has turned into a whole new kid. She is figuring out the world and how things work and it is awesome.

She says mama, dada, bye bye, and she waves...but most of the time it is only at herself in a mirror haha

She is finally eating more food far from a big eater but considering her size that is ok. But if it is baby food it has be the organic stuff in the pouches. Picky little girl...but I can't expect much less b/c she is mine! She sure loves pizza though :)

During the day she is the happiest little thing and most of the time naps like a champ. BUT night time is a whole different ball game, she is up at least 3 times if not more. If she gets up every 3 hours I'm lucky. She likes to nurse some and fall back to sleep only to wake up a short time later for a little more. I think now she makes up for her lack of nursing during the day all in her night feedings. I really do love the extra snuggles but I do not feel like I need to see her that much haha. Esp since now I wake up nurse her then put her back in her bed....no more sleeping with mommy. She flips and crawls around too much.

I'm just praying when we finally get her room heat fixed things will change.

Well we had her party today. I wanted to do it at our new house so I did just the immediate family...which was 20 people in itself (Luke and Katie couldn't come). So we had pizza and cupcakes. I was pleased b/c it was very laid back and I felt in control. It flowed well too.

When Miley did her dig in cake she went right to business. She only had one little taste but she did tear into it pretty good. It was awesome!

Miley was the party girl the whole time, keeping everyone well entertained! She even was in a good mood after the party for a while. So that made things really nice.

I still can not believe she is one! But definitely looking forward to the year to come...but it can move more slowly b/c I gotta soak in all the baby I can!

One year appt on Monday so I'll know stats then on the mighty mite.

Big girl bed!

We moved on Dec 31st, which means we moved Tommi into a big girl bed FINALLY! She loved her crib and did so well with it, I kinda didn't want to move her but at almost 4 it was about time. So her tiny little body is in a queen size bed. She is doing SO well. I expected she would get up and give us issues but she doesn't. She still hollars to get up and when she needs us. Well usually in the mornings she gets up on her own but since she sleeps late I'm ok with her getting up on her own.

I'm just so proud of her and how well she has done with the big change!

When she sleeping in a crib she always had so much stuff in it to snuggle with and I dare not take things out or she was not happy. Well now she is in a big bed...it is still super crowded! She is such a nut! Thankfully she does have more room so she is not as smushed with stuff but it does make me laugh.

I love my big girl...she is too smart for her own good. You don't get much past her and she knows it!

love/dislike

So we are approaching a year of me not sleeping through the night. I have grown used to it but would LOVE LOVE LOVE for it to end soon.

In the middle of the night Miley can be such a pain. She will wake up and nurse only to fall asleep again and I put her in her bed again and not long later she is up to finish her snack. I try my hardest to get her back to sleep with no nursing b/c I know she can't need it. Only to give in so I can sleep. In those moments I get much more upset then I would like to admit. I just get so frustrated. When only moments later I have the sweetest baby breath breathing on my chest and her head where I can steal the sweetest kisses ever. Then I find it very hard to put her down b/c I LOVE those moments of being able to kiss her head and smell her sweet baby-ness, knowing it will not last forever and I will sleep again and this may be the last time I have this moment with a child of my own. Knowing this it does not lessen my desire to sleep through the night but it just remind me to soak it up!

I love my sweet MJ more than words can say and as much of a pain in the butt she is with sleeping. She is by far one of the sweetest, most fun, and loving little girls ever! I just can not get enough of her smiles, "talking", and the belly laugh she does when her and Tommi are playing. She really is a piece of my heart I never knew was missing!

compare...

Ok so I can not help but compare my kids. It is natural, right? So I start comparing then get really sad b/c it seems Miley is so far behind where Tommi was at this age. Miley gives high fives and claps like a maniac but she is not signing, pointing, saying as many words, leafing through books, etc.

This evening TJ, Miley, and I went out to eat and run some errands. Tommi was with her grandparents at a basketball game. It is was kinda cool to spend some "alone" time with Miley with out her sister stealing the show. We had a blast laughing at her funny self and how excited and happy she is. There was a family at the table next to us...it was a very pregnant momma, a dad, and a 2 y/o little girl. The little girl was totally the center of her parents world and I just looked at TJ and said "That was us only a short year ago" It is crazy how time changes. Last year at this time I was pregnant with Miley and had a very newly potty trained 2 year old who was still such a "baby". Now Miley is becoming her own little person and Tommi is most definitely not a baby she is such an independent big kid. So bitter sweet!

Just my thoughts I will laugh at one day when Miley is smarter than Tommi ;)