Really?

Sometimes I feel like such a kid...like I'm faking this whole being married and having kids of my own thing.

But tonight while riding to church we only had Miley b/c Tommi wanted to go to kids choir practice so she rode with TJ's mom. So as I was thinking about Tommi and feeling a little incomplete. I had this moment that it felt like reality just hit me. I am 27 (sounds like a grown up), have been married for 6 years, and have TWO kids. This is not just playing house anymore.

I had this overwhelming feeling of accomplishment and pride. I am a mom of 2 awesome kids and have a man who loves me enough to promise me the rest of his life. So I know anyone can have a kid and people get married all the time....but my situation is legit :)

I honestly love my life. I love being a wife and mom more than anything in the world. Yes it is tough and yes sometimes quitting sounds really good. But I wouldn't trade it for anything in the world.

I am not sure what I did to be so blessed but I really am!

I have been so "down" about how the house stuff is going. Basically we have our house on the land but it still needs to be finished. We bought the house in April and thought we would be in by July at least...but everything has been pushed back and pushed back. Finally we are kinda seeing the light but it just feels like it keeps moving even as we make steps toward it. I know in my heart we will be in our house eventually but we don't know when. This is so discouraging.

So this reality check was really needed. I am blessed...I have such an amazing life. No it is not perfect....but I have a promise from the Lord that he will always take care of me. I believe his taking care of me right now is reminding me to look around and see how blessed I really am.

I mean look at these 2...I am a lucky mommy!!!

Crawler

Miley has been trying to crawl for sometime now but just couldn't figure it out and would get so frustrated. She would eventually get where she wanted to go (with in pretty close range) by getting up on all fours then going back to her butt. She would make it inch by inch.

Well she is finally on the move for real! It is welcomed b/c she LOVES being able to get where she wants. I love that if she is on the other side of the room and I sit down on the floor she flies over with her mouth wide open in excitement. I love being idolized!

She crawls by getting on all fours then putting her left foot flat on the ground and pumping her way across the floor while dragging her right knee on the ground. She does take breaks in the middle of crawling to sit but I think that is b/c she is just getting used to this whole on the move thing.

Yesterday at TJ's parents house, TJ and I were sitting on the floor with Miley and TJ got up and went to another room down the hall and Miley was quick to follow him and everytime he would peek out as her she would stop and smile almost saying "I'm not following you daddy" it was super cute!

It is a whole new world at our house. We have shoes by the front door and Miley is obsessed with going over and chewing on them. She has a room full of toys but no she wants the shoes at the front door. Guess I will be getting a bucket so she can't get to them. Oh baby proofing what fun!

Winning

I'm trying to document this stuff b/c it is so sweet and one day I will cling to these amazing memories.

We were at TJ's softball game last night and Tommi was playing with a friend her age. Well they were running and the little girl, we will call her M, would take off before Tommi said go. But they would both still run. Well M got to the end one time and said "I win" and Tommi said "I win, we both win". 

Then they did it again and when M said "I win", Tommi said "I lose" Well M's grandma said "No you both win, no one lost." Tommi looked at her and matter of factly said "No, it's ok. M won and I lost."

Tommi is usually just like her daddy and wants to win all the time. But she is slowly learning not everyone wins. I want her to know the joy of winning and the feeling of loss. So when she does "win" she feels even better about herself. If she "loses" she will work harder to get better at whatever it is. I tell her not to feel bad if she "loses" and do not make others feel bad if they "lose" it is just part of life.

It is a life lesson they are failing to teach kids. 

Rhymes

Tommi is all about rhyming right now. She knows the two words have to sound alike so she tries all the time to rhyme. Sometimes she is successful sometimes not so much. But for 3 years old the fact the mind is working on it is awesome.

Today she was talking about the letter Y and she said "Mommy, y and y rhyme."

I told her, "Not really, they are the same letter."

She said "Why are you feeding Miley? and Y the letter. They rhyme."

I was floored. Maybe b/c I'm her mom I think she is impressive but I thought her logic was very good. I mean for her to explain her theory the plain was amazing to me.

*Big ol mommy grin*

Chill...

Tommi was putting away her play-doh tonight and I told her to put it all in the bag and put it back where it belongs. As she put it away she said..."Chill woman, I'm taking care of it."

TJ had to cover his face and I just laughed b/c she was saying it being silly.

And yes TJ says it to me all the time...totally joking though.

MJ

I used to "brag" on Tommi alot and feel like Miley lacks that attention...well on the blog. I guess this is the difference in a first and second child...

Miley is such a sweetie, she loves being out and about seeing people and getting attention. If we are at home she demands her morning and afternoon naps but if we are out she will stay up for hours. She loves "talking" and just lighting up whatever room she is in with her amazing smile and sweet bashfulness. She is definitely a mommas girl but totally is crazy over her daddy. She wants to be held by mommy but have daddys undivided attention. And all he has to do is look at her and she folds into herself acting bashful and smiling. It is SO sweet!

She has some MAJOR separation anxiety! Most of the time she does not want me to leave the room or get out of her sight. But we make it work and I just have to time things right if I need to get something done while she is awake. She just has to be fed, entertained, and not tired at all!

When home she is either trying to climb on me or get into whatever big sis is doing...which cracks me up b/c she is already the "annoying" little sister at times.

As "bad" of a sleeper as Miley is...she has learned to put herself back to sleep. But still wants to nurse a few times a night...I honestly don't know how much she gets up b/c I latch her back on and go back to sleep :) I get super frustrated at times but it will be over before I know it (or I pray it will) and I'm just enjoying her sweet cuddles. I consider myself lucky that my baby wants me near so much. BUT I do pray she starts sleeping through the night before too long...b/c it would be nice not to have to wake up so much. But I am still her main source of nutrition. 

I find myself just squeezing her daily b/c she is just SO sweet and cute! I feel like i'm overflowing with love for her!

I have been blessed...as much as she can drive me to drink I feel like I am one VERY blessed mommy to have such a sweet little girl...I have 2 but this is about Miley and Miley only!

The last 8 and a half months have flown by! 

*shaking my head*

This is the conversation I overheard while TJ was putting Tommi to bed...

Daddy, my venus is small...but I have a big butt.
Ok honey...good night
Do you have a butt?
Yes
Do you have a penis?
Yes
Ok, good night daddy, I love you


WHAT?!?! Seriously Tommi?

I love this girl but she sure is random and asks too many questions.